My Weigh of Thinking

Day 3 and all is well

2012-02-17T12:29:00.005-05:00

Well, it's been three whole days now and things are going pretty well. The smoothies are good and my sweet hubby got me a Ninja Blender for Valentines Day. Whoa Nellie, is it ever powerful and sharp! I cut my finger washing it before I ever used it. It makes short work of ice cubes and other ingredients.

I've been really good at not grazing in the evenings. I will pop a 100 calorie snack bag of popcorn to munch on and slowly eat it one kernel at a time to make it last.

I haven't seen a rapid weight loss but I'm sure that is more wishful thinking on my part. We leave on Tuesday for Canada for a week so I'm sure it will make it a little harder but nothing ventured, nothing gained. I'm really looking forward to spending time with my Emma and her mom and dad.

Meanwhile its one foot in front of the other and keep on keeping on. This is a recent picture of one of my dear friends from high school. She underwent weight loss surgery about a year ago. She went from wearing a 5 x to a medium. I'm really proud of her and envious but her face really looks gaunt and she looks really old now.

I want to lose the weight but not look emaciated.

Oh well, I have a long way to go before I ever get to this point.

What I'm doing now

2012-02-16T09:58:00.004-05:00

Perhaps you noticed that I never got to day 17 of the 17 day diet.

Wow, I'm not dyslectic I have diet ADHD!

This is what I'm currently doing to lose weight.

I'm drinking Smoothies that Dr. Oz had in his book You on a Diet.

Because I tend to bounce from diet to diet I'm posting each of the smoothies here so I can find them again.

Get Lean Smoothie

2/3 cup ice, 3 Tbs cold water
handful of spinach leaves
1/3 cup cooked kale
3 orange slices
1/3 cup green grapes
1/2 peeled small ripe pear
1/2 small banana
3/4 tsp. chia seed

Wt loss boost: Chia seed boost omega 3s that can help restore energy levels, also high in fiber

Smarty Pants Smoothie

Blend 1 banana
1/4 cup blue berries
a handful of hemp nuts
1/2 cup apple juice
1 tsp. flaxseed oil

Wt. loss boost: antioxidants from blue berries and Omega 3s from hemp and flax target
ab flab, also high in fiber

Health boost: hemp supports brain neuron, blue berries are brain berries and are linked
to improved memory.

Better Sleep Cherry Smoothie

Blend i cup tart cherry juice
1/2 banana
1/2 cup soy milk
5 ice cubes
1/4 tsp vanilla extract

Wt.loss boost: It will help you sleep more soundly, reduces craving and stimulates metabolism. Good sleep is the missing link in weight loss.

Health boost: Cherry juice is an amazing source of melatonin that aids in sleep.

Fatigue Fighting Protein Blaster

Blend 1/2 ripe banana
1/4 cup soy milk
1/2 can crushed pineapple
1/4 cup pineapple sorbet
1 Tbs protein powder
1/4 cup strawberries

Wt. loss boost: Soy adds protein

Health boost: Protein keeps you going all day long.Protein steadies the blood sugar and keeps you from crashing.

Get Glowing Smoothie

Bend 2 Tbs unsweetened coconut milk
1 cup Almond milk
1/2 cup pineapple
1/2 cup mango
1/2 cup ice

Wt Loss: contains Vitamins A,B,C,E and enzyme bromelain to sooth internal inflammation.

Health Boost: fights wrinkles, puffiness and great for the skin.

You drink one for a meal replacement for one or two meals and eat a sensible meal . In addition to this you can eat three snacks a day mostly fruit, almonds, or hummus with vegetables.

* So far I've lost 3 pounds in two days
* The Get Lean Smoothie will turn your bowel movements green
* None of them have tasted bad but I've only had the Get Lean Smoothie, Smarty Pants Smoothie and Fatigue Fighting Smoothie so far.

New Year, New Goal, New Motivation

2012-02-16T09:18:00.004-05:00

Hello Long Lost Forgotten Weight Loss Blog.....I'm Back.

Today makes 4 years to the day that I had my lap band surgery. I managed to lose 50 pounds, gained back 10 and now I'm more motivated to continue the journey I started .

What I know about myself.

I am not new to dieting. I start a new diet every week with some limited success then something new comes along and I jump over to the next one.

I think I am a dyslectic dieter. I get distracted by the next shiny object and wander away.

I eat at night. During the day I'm rock solid. I start out the day well, get lots of exercise at work, eat soup, string cheese and an apple for lunch, eat a modest dinner and then "Graze" all night long till I go to bed. I blow the entire day by what I eat at night.

I go to bed late. I stay up and watch TV and snack. Most of the shows I enjoy start at 10P.M.
I have read that not getting enough sleep can lead to obesity and I'm walking proof of the theory.

I have too many "Red Flag" Foods in my house. I am a sweet eater, a chocolate eater, a peanut butter eater, and adore baked goods. I absolutely can not have them in the house or have to have them out of sight and in a very inconvenient place.

I eat too fast. Charlie inhales his food and runs off to the next thing. I tend to do like wise but with very bad consequences. I literally choke if I eat too fast.

I think I deserve comfort food after the long day I put in. Yep, I do reward myself with food.....not proud of it, but it's a fact.

So....knowing all this what's different now?

They are!

This is my baby boy and his bride to be.

These two love birds are getting married Nov. 10, 2012

This gives me 8 months to get to my goal weight.

I really want to look fabulous for their wedding.

I want to be able to dance with the groom and not be embarrassed by my weight or be an embarrassment to him.

Totally superficial yes! Totally honest....you bet!

Don't get me wrong. I always start out well I just never follow through. So I'm back blogging even though no one reads this but me.

This is the first day of the rest of my life....so let's make it a good one.

Day 9 of 17

2011-06-09T12:12:00.002-05:00

Hi, ho, hi ho, it's back to work I go....not that I'm thrilled to be here!

I'm not going to weigh daily as I go nuts if the scale actually shows a weight gain. I have a hard time not taking a hammer to it. I'm convinced that the scale is a tool of the devil to cause discouragement!

Mr. Wonderful got back last night. It's good to have him home. I missed my coffee at the bedside every morning.

I didn't exercise yesterday so felt guilty about it. I did get a two mile "big burn" in before breakfast followed by a shower and a good breakfast. Most of the day I've been doing desk work....guess I'll have to get up and go run around the building a few times.

The day is going well. I just wish I was seeing a more dramatic weight loss.

Daisy Dilemma: What do you do when you start playing "mind games" on yourself?

Day 8...Like Water for Elephants

2011-06-08T14:47:00.003-05:00

Lazy day for me. I had a hold on the book Water for Elephants for about 2 weeks now. Yesterday it came in and I went to the library to pick it up. So I pretty much spent the day in the circus during the 1930's. The movie came out several weeks ago and I decided I wanted to read the book before I saw the movie.

I thoroughly enjoyed the book and read it in one day. Since I'm not an avid reader like Mr. Wonderful that's saying a lot for the book. I have enjoyed my time alone but am looking forward to my honey's return tonight.

This day 8 of 17.....I've not cheated or snacked so I'm quite proud of myself. I've exercised every day except today and will when I finish this post.

Thanks Sara Gruen for a most enjoyable read.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you ever read a good book for a non food reward? I think I like the idea more and more.

Day 7 (The first week) Vision Casting

2011-06-07T07:11:00.004-05:00

Most diet books I've read talk about "Vision Casting"....dreaming about what you want and how it will be when you accomplish the task before you. So hear goes.

When I lose my weight I'll be able to wear cute clothes. I know this sounds so superficial but I've been a "big girl" most of my life. My hubby used to tell me he marveled that I could get dressed so quickly for an evening out. It really wasn't hard when you only have a few items of clothing that actually fit you. I have noticed that as I lose weight and have more clothing options it takes me longer as I keep changing my mind . I still don't like what I see in the mirror but my body is changing everyday.

When I lose my weight I'll be able to buy clothing off the rack. Again, this sounds so superficial but I've always hated going shopping with other people because nothing fit me at a "regular store". I was always the fat friend that held the bags while everyone else tried on clothing.

When I lose my weight I won't have seat belt anxiety and will feel more confident to get on an airplane. Seat belt anxiety...will the seat belt fit or will I have to ask for an extension. Will the pull down table have room to pull down? Will I "lap over" my seat allowance and crowd my seat mate? Will the airline insist that I buy two seats! All real anxieties I've faced.

When I lose my weight I'll be able to dance at my son's wedding without embarrassing either of us. My son is in love with a fabulous girl and there is a wedding somewhere in my future. I want to be able to dance with my son and celebrate with him as he starts a new future with his bride.

When I lose my weight I'll be able to have more energy and do more "living" and less observing. It seems like we are in a rut, eat, sleep, work. I would like to do more living and less existing. As much as I hate to exercise I want to be able to climb stairs and not be "winded". I don't want my joints to ache because of some physical exertion. They say for every pound you lose you take off 4 pounds of pressure off your joints.

When I lose my weight I'll be able to play on the floor with my grand-babies and not worry "Will I be able to get back up?" Little boys and girls like to play cars, build blocks, roll balls all on the floor. I can get down all right....getting back up is always a challenge.

When I lose my weight I'll be able to accomplish a life time goal and be more confident and carry myself with more poise and grace. For as long as I can remember I've always been the fat girl, I look around the room and try to find some one bigger than I am. Most time, I am the biggest person in the room. I feel awkward and self-conscious. Losing my weight would be a life time goal that I've never quite been able to accomplish.

Whew! Well there they are! Probably nothing new or great insight but mine nonetheless! I'm a week into the 17 day diet and so far it is going well. I'm hopeful, which is an emotion I haven't felt in a long time.

Yesterday went well. I cleaned out my closet of winter clothing, clothing that I'm sure I won't ever wear, and clothing I wouldn't wear even if I could. Needless to say it won't take me long to choose what I'm going to wear in the morning now. I boxed up clothing that is the next size down so I can get to them easily. I got 11,000 steps in just working in the house. I didn't "veg out" in front of the TV till yesterday evening and by then I was really tired and enjoyed the break. No snacking or grazing either.

Today has already started and I'm behind....speaking of behinds, I need to get mine in motion.

Daisy Dilemma: What do you dream of doing when your weight is no longer an issue?

Day 6...Another Monday Morning

2011-06-06T12:03:00.004-05:00

Yep, you guessed it....me while exercising! Not a pretty picture I assure you but nevertheless it has to be done and so far I've been faithful at it.

Today Mr. Wonderful left to go to a conference in South Carolina. I had two options. A) Go off to work without him B) stay home and get some of my projects done. I choice option B. I have been very good about writing up a "To Do List" and crossing things off to make sure I use my time wisely. Otherwise I tend to veg out in front of the TV or curl up with a book and wonder why the house fairies didn't come to clean.

So far I've done 3 loads of laundry, put them away, did the BIG BURN workout with Leslie Sansone (and didn't die), changed the table cloth which led to cleaning out my cedar chest, vacuumed out the cedar chest and the entire house and now I'm looking for places to put the items I removed from the cedar chest. Seems like the more I clean the more mess I make! As you can see just another Monday Morning in Paradise!

The Big Burn workout was intervals and two miles. I liked the video because she warms you up, takes you through the intervals and cools you down. It really made me sweat without causing me physical harm! (always a good thing). I think I'll try doing the interval training at least 3 times a week.

No weight loss today....boo! No weight gain....Yay! I'm cooking up chicken and turkey on the grill for the next few days just to make sure I have something to snack on when I'm hungry that I can eat and still stay on program.

The new tennis shoes are getting broken in and they really are much better for exercising. I'm still looking for the exercise I enjoy. Till then I'm enduring (but not with a lot of grace!)

Daisy Dilemma: What's your favorite form of torture...ah, exercise?

Day 4 and 5 (the weekend)

2011-06-05T17:07:00.003-05:00

Well, I wondered how I would do over the weekend....no work schedule, plenty of opportunity to raid the refrigerator and lots of time to myself. I was pleased that I didn't cheat or make unscheduled trips to graze.

Mr. Wonderful and I set up my gym. He even set up a TV so I can watch TV while walking on the treadmill. I was quite pleased with the outcome. Bless his heart, it was lots of hard dirty work to run the cable!

We spent Saturday afternoon running around Waynesboro and Staunton doing errands. By the time we got home I wasn't in the mood to exercise so I only got about 5,000 steps in. I did get a new pair of sneakers to give me some stability while I exercise.

I was thrilled to find out I've lost 6 pounds this morning (Sunday). I got up at 6:30 and got my two mile walk in first thing. We also watched Charles Stanley on TV as well as Joel Osteen before I got ready for church.

The day has gone well, the weekend has gone well. My next big challenge is getting past the next 3 days while Mr. Wonderful is gone to a conference. In the past I've indulged myself with food. I need to get past this old way of dealing with my emotions.

So, here's to some new challenges!

Daisy Dilemma : How do you break old habits?

Three days in.....

2011-06-03T09:27:00.004-05:00

Well, my 17 day diet is still going well but then I'm only 3 days into it. So far, I haven't had to resort to the picture on the left . We will see though, I guess it's a viable option!

I found a weight loss tracker and successfully put it on my blog. I know that doesn't sound like a big thing but with my limited computer skills I was quite pleased. I also found a printable weight loss tracker that advocates weighing yourself daily. I printed it, put it on a clip board and have it next to the scale now. I was very pleased to find I had a dropped a pound since yesterday. Yay me!!! So now I'm down 4 pounds! I did manage to get over 10.000 steps in yesterday too.

I tend to start well but not follow through.

Last night went well. I didn't snack or make my nightly pilgrimage to the refrigerator. I did get all my water in, but noticed I got a really bad headache after dinner. Some Advil, cup of coffee, and warm compress finally made it go away. I don't think it was the result of the diet but will see if it happens again.

So far this morning has gone well. I bring lunch so it will not be a problem. This is my first weekend on this diet and will be a good indicator how committed I am to this eating plan.

Daisy Dilemma: How do you motivate yourself to exercise?

Second day and going well so far....

2011-06-02T09:29:00.003-05:00

Well, I survived yesterday and today is looking pretty good too.

I'm eating grilled turkey burgers or grilled chicken. I loved grilled veggies especially with Vidalia Onions so eating non starchy veggies grilled with a little bit of Olive Oil and seasoned with Mrs. Dash and a little sea salt has not been a sacrifice at all.

This morning I had an omelet with southwest egg beaters and some onion. Our strawberries have finally gotten ripe so I had some strawberries fresh from the garden too. They are really small but oh so sweet.

I walked for 17 minutes on the treadmill yesterday....at 2.2 miles per hour and at a 50% incline. I survived but will probably have to have a TV in my gym to distract me while I walk. This morning I did a two mile walk with Leslie Sansone DVD. I need to incorporate some other DVD's into my routine for diversity. So far I've not found anything that I just love to do....I have to face it that I may never enjoy exercise but I definitely need to do it everyday.

My gym is starting to take shape. We will probably work on it some more this weekend. Every day we think of new ways to improve it.

I've wanted to go to Boston for the last 3 years and I'm thinking that if I make my goal of losing 30 pounds by September 1st that is what I would definitely enjoy. Usually our trips involve seeing relatives and have very little to do with just the enjoyment of travel....so this would be a trip to just enjoy Boston .

I didn't snack last night or make my nightly visitations to the refrigerator.

Daisy Dilemma: What do you do to reward yourself for meeting a big goal?

Hello lost forgotten blog

2011-06-01T19:25:00.003-05:00

The doctor is IN....

It's been a while since I've blogged but I'm back with fresh insight and fresh enthusiasm.

After gaining 20 pounds I've decided I need to stop what I've been doing and regroup.

I started unofficially yesterday and officially today.

I'm doing the 17 day diet. The first phase is called the accelerated phase and is basically Atkins with the exception of two servings of fruit a day and one of yogurt. I love fruit and am crazy about yogurt so it seems like a good fit for me. I do need to get sugar and carbs out of my life and out of my system. I might not be able to do it forever but I can swing 17 days.

I learned that I need to set some goals. So my goal is to lose 30 pounds by September 1st....three months. I've already talk to Mr. Wonderful and told him my idea and that I need to have a great reward for reaching that first goal. He agreed!

Over the weekend he bought a treadmill and a recumbent bike for me for 30 dollars for both. We are repurposing our guest room into a gym. Our guest room only gets used maybe once a year if that so we have already taken down the bed and stored the mattress and box spring next to the wall. The guest room has an air conditioner so it won't be hot. The 17 day diet says you must exercise for at least 17 minutes twice a day. I think i can do that even though I hate to exercise.

I lost 3 pounds since yesterday....so Yay me....only 27 to go.

Daisy Dilemma: What motivates you?

Be sure your sins will find you out

2011-03-18T11:35:00.003-05:00

OK, the picture to the left could be a snapshot of what goes on with me after dinner.

I do really well at breakfast and lunch (mostly because I'm at work and bring my lunch and snacks). The real problem doesn't really begin till I'm home.

Dinner normally goes well. It's the time between 8pm and midnight that are the hours you can find me making the "scrounging the refrigerator for something to eat" runs. It might not be so bad if I had more than just a few feet to travel (maybe if I had to run a mile to the refrigerator and a mile back to my easy chair I could justify it.) The worst part I eat out of boredom or frustration ....not because I'm really hungry. If hunger isn't the problem, then eating won't fix it.

I know what to do.....now I just need to do it.

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. (Ephesians 1:17-19).

Be Persistent! I must ask God to join me in this weight loss journey. Paul doesn't ask for wisdom one time. Paul asks over and over again. So should I. I need to ask God for wisdom, revelation and intervening power to be an integral part of my food choices from now on.

My Morning Prayer: God, I recognize I am made for more than the vicious cycle of being ruled by food. I need to eat to live, not live to eat. So, I keep asking for Your wisdom to know what to eat and Your indwelling power to walk away from things that are not beneficial for me.

Glorious Father: The truth of my identity as a child of God empowers me to believe that living in victory tastes sweeter than any unhealthy delicacy.

So you may know Him better. There is a deeper purpose behind our disciplined commitment. Making this connection- between being made for more and getting to know God better- helps this whole adventure be less about food and exercise and lifestyle choices and more about embracing a chance for deep and wonderful connection with God.

heart enlightened to the hope and power that is available to us. I am made for more that excuses and vicious cycles. I can experience truth. I can choose to stay on the path of hard work and perseverance . I am made for more than this!

Monday Morning Regrets

2011-02-07T10:33:00.003-05:00

It's Monday Morning, the day when all diets start over again. The day you tell yourself, "Enough of this, you know what to do.....so let's start doing it!"

Unfortunately, the picture to the left is how I've been eating lately and it's time I stopped.

My little walking lady needs to be backed up considerably.

So with new resolve I start going forward even though I definitely lost momentum.

come join me or cheer from the bleachers....

Daisy Dilemma: How many do overs do you get?

A Call to Action

2010-12-16T09:53:00.003-05:00

Wow, this article by Lysa TerKeurst of Proverbs 31 Ministry really hit home with me. This is an avenue that I want to pursue and an area that I've never had much success. Help me Lord satisfy my inner longing with you and not turn to food for temporary comfort. Amen.
“Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food.”
Romans 14:20a (NIV)

Three years ago I was stuck in a rut of wishful thinking and excuses with my weight. At the beginning of each day I would say I wanted things to be different. I would vow in my heart to make things different. I would even make a plan to stop the snacks, increase the veggies, and say no to the desserts.

But then life would happen. And the excuses were so very plentiful. So, my resolve would melt away like butter on a hot yeast roll.

Of course the next morning I would always get up and weigh myself hoping that somehow magic would have happened over night. Despite my indulgences from the day before, maybe the numbers would have gone down.

But the scale was not impressed with my wishful thinking. It could only tell the truth.

And so you know who I’d get mad at?

God.

I’d beg Him to help me one minute while scarfing down an order of fries the next. And then I’d be doubly mad He didn’t steer my car away from that drive-thru.

I deemed myself a victim of tragic genetics, overactive taste buds and a stomach that demanded large portions.

What I failed for years to realize is there was a much more significant issue going on.

More important than the ever increasing size of my jeans was the deception going on inside my heart. My weight wasn’t God’s curse on me. My weight was an outside indication of an internal situation.

Honestly, I might as well have taken Psalm 23 which talks about the Lord being my shepherd and my comfort and replaced His name with various foods. I was relying on food to be my comfort, my ever present help, my guide. Food was the thing that got me through the valleys. It became the friend I wanted to celebrate with in the good times.

I don’t write to point out anyone else’s issue. There are certainly medical and genetic circumstances that can cause weight gain. But I discovered that my issue was truly a spiritual one. And no diet would have ever been permanently successful until I got to the real root of my problem.

The root of my issue was craving food more than God. I desired and depended on the instant high of physical gratification because I hadn’t learned how to let God satisfy my deepest needs. This realization became a call to action.

Maybe as you read my story, something is stirring in your soul. I know this is a tough issue. I’ve walked through the tears and the feelings of failure. I was the girl mad at God about this whole deal. But I wanted freedom. And I realized that if I wanted to have my deepest desires met by God and not food, I would need to restore God to His rightful place by changing my old thought patterns. Here are some examples I wrote about in my new book, Made to Crave:

Old thought patterns:
“I need these chips. I deserve this ice cream. I must have that extra large portion.”

New thought patterns:
Chips will only taste good for the moment. But the calories are empty and will do nothing good for my body. 2 Corinthians 7:1 reminds me, “…Let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit… out of reverence for God.”

This ice cream will give me a sugar high but then I’ll crash and feel terrible. Psalm 34: 8 reminds me to get into God’s word and let it satisfy the deep hungry places of my soul, “Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.”

This extra large portion will overstuff me and make me feel sluggish. I can’t look to this food to soothe me. Psalm 34:5 says, “Those who look to [God] are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.”

Learning to do this has been a process that I have to intentionally choose day after day. Eventually, I did lose the extra weight I needed to shed and have kept it off. But the real reward was what I gained with Jesus in the process. He became the best part of my journey. And I wouldn’t have missed this new found closeness I now have with Him for anything in the world.

Dear Lord, if this devotion is a call to action that I need to make, please help me. I want to see the root of my issue, I really do. I want to learn to crave and depend on only You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Another Monday morning....

2010-02-01T09:45:00.003-05:00

Today is Monday and I heard the scale beckoning to me early this morning. I've been avoiding the scales because I have an obsessive compulsion to weigh every day and I get upset if I go backwards or when my weight fluctuates.

I know it's better to weigh once a week so I deliberately put all my dirty clothes around the scale. I figured I it would 1) motivate me to do the laundry 2) give me exercise toting the clean clothes to the bedroom and into their appropriate drawers or closets and 3) slow down my desire to step on the scale every time I went to the bathroom.

I was delightfully surprised to see another 3 pounds gone getting me back to my starting point with my avatar. So limber up little ole lady cause we are about to start a marathon stroll on our march to 199!

I had a good week diet wise. These are the lessons I learned:

1. I do so much better when I record what I eat and the calorie count.
2. I do more exercise when I wear the pedometer . I think it makes me more aware to get up and move every hour.
3. Little Debbie has Red Velvet cake ( 100 calories) that taste good and is a great treat when you have "cake on the brain". Limit one only!
4. Who knew I would look forward to hot instant oatmeal with cinnamon? Oatmeal doesn't stick to your hips (finally something that doesn't!) and is great comfort food. The cinnamon smells great too!
5. Snack microwave popcorn (100 calories) saved my life this weekend when I was so hungry for something to gnaw on . It's filling and I eat one kernel at a time.
6. Quaker "Mini Delights" chocolate mint satisfied my chocolate craving this week for only (90) calories. Chocolate Kisses seem to wake up the chocolate monster in me. Mini delights are rice snacks with chocolate drizzled on it and satisfies my crunch and chocolate need.
7. Beano is my new best friend. I seem to have developed a gluten intolerance so even small amounts of oatmeal, wheat and flour gives me flatulence. I do eat a lot of beans also so it's a tie what is really the culprit. I actually carry it in my purse now.
8. I still hate exercise and have to force myself to do it.
9. I love to see the scale moving in the downward direction. It makes me do a happy dance which is exercise right?
10. It was nice packing up more fat clothes and getting them out of closet.

Ok, that was probably way too much information but that's what I learned.

Daisy Dilemma: What did you learn about yourself this week?

Who Knew?

2010-01-29T12:29:00.002-05:00

Yes, that's me, and no I don't have hydrophobia but I did make a startling discovery.

I tend to graze at night. I know I shouldn't, and I tell myself I won't and I've been very good about either having a cup of hot tea when I've got the munchies, or sugar free jello with a dollop of fat free Cool Whip. However, the desire is always there and it takes all my "won't power" not to give in to the temptation.

I am not a person who can do moderation. I'm either all in or not at all. Usually a small portion of whatever I'm craving turns into a bigger portion and the next thing I know it's all gone. (except for the lingering evidence of my dietary indiscretions that are forever on my hips and backside!)

I have discovered that if I brush my teeth after my cuppa tea at night it seems to signal my brain that the mouth has shut down for business till morning. If I do eat something after brushing my teeth it never taste good so why bother. It's so simple , yet it seems to work for me.....Who Knew?

Daisy Dilemma: What "tricks" have you discovered that help you from over eating?

Cake on the brain....

2010-01-27T16:30:00.002-05:00

I just finished writing a post about what is your greatest temptation food wise and now I've got cake on the brain.

I drank a nice glass of water.....it didn't help.

I ate a crunchy fiber filled apple....it didn't help.

I pictured myself thin and healthy....it didn't help.

I prayed that God would take away the temptation....God said, "relax you don't have any cake in the house and my grace is sufficient for you". That did help!

We had prayer day today at the mission and it was awesome how God is working in North Korea! Some days I feel like a spiritual pygmy!

Daisy Dilemma: What do you do when you have cake on the brain to distract yourself? Or do you give in to the impulse ?

No so terrible Tuesday.....

2010-01-26T14:07:00.002-05:00

I feel like the cartoon pretty often! Yesterday was a busy day at work and today has been too. I worked this morning packing and moving boxes that were 30 and 40 pounds so I think I got my strength training in for the day.

I still get up and move every hour and walk up and down a flight of stairs every hour. I would love to report that my butt dropped off with all this exercise but it hasn't.

Yesterday I was telling the Lord that I needed new underwear since mine no longer fits and guess what came in the mission? If you said, new underwear that fit me exactly give yourself 5 points and high five to God. I got a really nice black lacy bra that hugs my curves just exactly right, plus it's pretty. I made the mistake of showing it to Mr. Wonderful this morning and now when he looks at me he blushes. (Isn't that the cutest thing?)

If I weighed myself every day I would know that I dropped another pound but since that sounds obsessive compulsive I'll wait to report my weight loss next Monday.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you reward yourself for losing weight? for exercising? If so what is your reward system?

Weigh in week two.....

2010-01-25T10:08:00.002-05:00

Ok, it's the dreaded Monday morning again....the day all diets start and my weekly weigh in. I was down by three pounds and the picture on the left should give you an idea about how I feel about it!

I won't lie to you it was a hard week. Dieting to me is a full time job. I made good choices but it wasn't always easy.

I'm still adjusting to my eating limitations and learning not to push the boundaries. I'm learning to stop before I'm full. I'm learning what foods I tolerate better than others and I'm learning to let my mind control what I eat and not my eyes!

I'm also learning that I do better when I record what I eat (the good, the bad, and the ugly). I'm starting to see patterns in my eating and overeating so can start to formula a plan to counteract my emotional eating.

I'm three pounds away from letting my "little ole lady avatar" start walking again. Hope she still remembers how to go forward. Poor dear probably became arthritic waiting for me to come to my senses.

We went to a movie yesterday ( a rare treat) and then out for over priced coffee at Barnes and Noble. I found out they have "skinny" lattes and frappacino's (about a third of the regular calories). It tasted the same to me so I'm thrilled that I can have an occasional treat without totally blowing my calories for the day.

Daisy Dilemma: What's your favorite indulgence food wise? What's your favorite indulgence non- food?

Another Gray day

2010-01-21T16:07:00.003-05:00

Now why didn't my doctor ever tell me this?

Sorry Leslie, you were on your own this morning. I looked at the clock at 6 a.m. and turned over with a groan.....yesterday was a little too much exercise. I was lifting 30 and 40 pound boxes most of the day and my back, arms and legs are talking to me today.

Today is a cold gray and I've been chilled most of the day in my office. I'm clock watching right now thinking about my nice warm house and a hot cup of tea.

My eating was good today but then it always is while I'm at work. The snack attacks occur at night. I've got all my meals planned out and I know what I'm eating tonight. I just have to keep reminding myself that I'm not really hungry and if I am reach for a healthy snack.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you exercise every day or try for 3 days a week?

Poor Lazy Daisy.....

2010-01-20T18:54:00.004-05:00

I managed to drag my body out of bed again this morning at 6 a.m. It wasn't pretty and I felt very much like the daisy on the left. After a morning cup of coffee I did a two mile walk in my living room with Leslie Sansone. Mr. Wonderful walked the first mile with me, smiled sweetly and said, I'll have to work up to the second mile.

The rest of morning went pretty much like yesterday. We were pleased to get to work a few minutes early so we could prepare for the volunteers coming in to help us sort and box hospital linens for Haiti.

We had 21 people arrive to help with the Haiti relief project. It was hard work trying to keep ahead of the group to make sure every one had something to do. We ended up processing 3 pallets of hospital linens. I didn't have to worry about getting my 10,000 steps in today. I already have over 15,000.

Today is my carb up day. I had extra thin pizza for dinner and treated myself to a peppermint patty. I love carb up days. I figured the two extra miles today would definitely help compensate for the extra calories.

Hope your day went well. Looks like we are in for snow tomorrow.

Daisy Dilemma: How come commitment to exercise never gets easier?

So Far Today....

2010-01-19T14:25:00.004-05:00

I actually got up at 6:15 this morning. It was hard but I dragged myself out of bed with the same enthusiasm that the Dunkin Donuts man used to have in the commercials...."Gotta go make the donuts!"

Actually had I thought of donuts in my early morning stupor I might have been a little more energetic at my approach to walking with Leslie.

Mr. Wonderful had a wonderful cup of coffee waiting for me which helped. My heart doesn't start beating till I've had a cuppa joe in the morning.

By 6:35 I was dressed, finished with my coffee and in front of the TV to go walking with Leslie. She was her usual chirpy self and told me that I had made a good choice today. One mile into the two mile walk Mr. Wonderful decided to join me. It tickled me watching him trying to balance, move his arms, and legs all at one time. At the end of the second mile he had to admit it was much harder than it looks.

We finished by 7:05. He headed for the shower while I made breakfast. Southwest egg beater with red, and green peppers. I threw in some fresh mushroom and some low fat shredded cheese since I was thrilled that Mr. Wonderful had actually joined me walking this morning. I microwaved a couple strips of turkey bacon and we had a wonderful morning feast.

After breakfast, he put the dishes in the dishwasher and went out to put wood in the stove while I took my shower and dressed. We both made lunch to take with us, had our daily devotion and prayer time and out the door before 8 o'clock.

Wow! I can't say it will happen every day but we were both quite pleased with the experiment this morning.

So far the day has gone quite well.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you celebrate daily victories or do you celebrate only if the scale moves?

Melli Moment: In regard to your question about my recent weight gain. I had lost down to 214 but hadn't moved my little walker lady (so it's not quite as bad as it looks. ) And yes, this seems the blog where only we communicate! When are you thinking of taking your cross country road trip. I mentioned it to Mr. Wonderful and he just smiled. It was a Mona Lisa kind of smile so haven't figured out if it was good or bad.

Where's my 16 pound loss ?

2010-01-18T15:03:00.003-05:00

A whole week has gone by and I jump on the scale expecting a 16 pound weight loss just like the book promised. Did it register 16.....no, but maybe it registered 16 on the Richter scale. The floor did shake a bit and I'm sure the scale groaned as much as I did when I saw the number.

I lost 2 pounds which is pretty good considering my Carb up days were rather extravagant. I was doing really very well as long as I recorded every mouthful and was diligent to walk with Leslie (I know, I know....you told me so Leslie!)

Tuesday, was the earthquake in Haiti and being the emotional eater I am , I ate even when I wasn't hungry. I ate till I finally heard that all our friends were alright and no one was injured. The rest of week has been full of activities trying to coordinate items for relief shipping.

I'll take the loss and say "Thank you Jesus". I'm back on the straight and narrow again, recording my activity and food choices. You won't see my little ole lady move till I get rid of the extra 12 pounds. I definitely do not back her up....poor dear has trouble going forward so I don't want to confuse her.

My plan for the week is to clean out my guest room and put my stationery bike in there so I can use it on a daily basis. Right now it's on the porch and a little too breezy to work out. (hmmm....bet I would move faster if I worked out on the porch!)

Stay away from my Red light foods (foods that tend to control me rather than me controlling them.) Exercise every day with a two mile walk with Leslie. Get up an hour earlier to get that walk in. Walk up and down the stairs at work every hour. Keep up my food journal daily.
Weigh weekly instead of every day.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you look thinner if you run around with thin people or with fat people?

10 Smart Tips for Weight loss

2010-01-14T15:02:00.002-05:00

1. Eat every three hours. (Finally, the number one tip that I can really follow!) "This simple strategy has been shown to melt as many calories in a day as a 30-minute workout. That's becau8se every time you eat, there's a rise in core temperatures that burns calories. Eating several small meals triggers many metabolism -revving spikes throughout the day.

2. Make the first meal of the day "chewy". During sleep, metabolism slows as the body "fasts", and a liquid breakfast does little to get calorie burning going again. "Chewing is necessary to fully stimulate the digestion, saliva production and enzymatic action that fire up the body's furnace." No more breakfast shakes for this girl!

3. Snack on grapefruit. This powerful metabolism booster and insulin regulator keeps carb cyclers losing at a fast and steady clip. On carb down days, add half a grapefruit to breakfast and lunch; on carb up days, add half a grapefruit to dinner and have the other half for a bedtime snack.

4. Make oatmeal your staple starch carb. Thanks to its superior fiber content, this breakfast favorite boosts levels of the appetite-suppressing hormone cholecystokinin. ( And oatmeal carbs won't stick to you hips!)

5. Stick to these portions. To easily setimate serving sizes without weighing every morsel of food, carb cyclers use the size of their fist as one serving of carbs ( including grains, veggies, fruit, beans and bread), their palm as one serving of protein and size of a soda-bottle cap, as one serving of fats.

6. Fill up on ultra-low carb veggies. Eating unlimited quantiest of asparagus, broccoli, lettuce, mushrooms, spinach and radishes ensures hugner is never an issue.The sugars in these high-fiber options enter the bloodstream slowly, prolonging fullness.

7. Opt for quality protein. Eggs, whey, lean meats, fish and unsweetened nut butters have a high termic effect of food-the body expends five times more calories digesting them than it does processing protein, fat or carbohydrates. Carb cyclers get the slimming effect by eating on serving of healthy protein at least four times a day.

8. Enjoy warming spices. Cinnamon, nutmeg and cloves are thermogenic, so eating just 1/2 tsp. daily raises body temperature to rev metabolism by up to 78 percent. That means that more calories are burned even at rest.

9. Move your body every hour. Many of the women who lost big on this plan report that they had no time for exercise. The beauty is they slim without it just by doing a smidgen of activity once every hour. According to research in the journal Diabetes, micro-fitness prevents metabolism slowdowns and deeps blood sugar stable, warding off weight gain. Try pacing while talking on the phone or rappidly tapping your feet football drill style for 30 seconds.

10. Get more fat-burning L-carnitine. This amino acid compound transprots stored fatty acids to cellular mitochondria, which burn that fat for fuel. L-carnitine is also proven to reduce hormone-induced cravings in peri-menopausal and menopausal women. It is found in beef, poultry, fish, eggs, mild and cheese, but to get the study-backed dose of 300 tp 1,000 mg,, consider taking top -rated Now L Carnitine Liquid 1,000 mg.

Daisy Dilemma : All but the last one sound reasonable. I should do some research on the last one though.

From the Magazine Article " Drop 16 lbs this week"

Slim Again in 2010

2010-01-14T14:22:00.004-05:00

Well the new year is here and it's time to stop over eating and get back into healthy. I managed to gain 14 pounds from Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years. So it's time to stop the insanity and get back to doing what I know to do.

My sister bought me the Biggest Loser Complete Calorie Counter which has really been helpful especially for knowing what to order when eating out. So I am recording what I eat and researching the calories as well. I am much more aware when I record my eating. It is also helping me remember to drink water. I can't eat and drink at the same time so I forget to drink.

Mr. Wonderful gave me a hot pink Bubba Keg (32 oz) that I keep on my desk and drink through out the day. Being Hot Pink it is not easy to overlook.

I'm wear my pedometer everyday and am pushing myself to get in 10,000 steps every day. I've blown the dust walk of my Leslie Sansone Walking away your hips and thighs and have been doing the two mile walk every day (well since Monday) and even started using the toning bands 3 times a week.

So far it's resulted in sore muscles especially when I go to sit or stand (so at least the right muscles are being targeted!)

I'm into Carb Cycling now (as of Monday) which is working pretty well so far.

Week 1 and 2

Carb down for 4 days each week (such as Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday)

On those days, have low-carb meals, and whey shakes at any time, plus one serving of starchy carbs ( such as oatmeal, pasta, rice, sweet potatoes, beets or carrots ) before 3P.M. Limit fat intact to one serving of healthy oils (like olive oil or flaxseed).

Carb up for two nonconsecutive days, (say, Wednesday and Saturday), having three carb meals- one before 3 PM, and two after 3 PM. You can really let loose on carb up days, enjoying pizza, ice cream, cake....even alcohol.

For the remaining "baseline day" ( for example, Sunday), eat two carb meals before 3 Pm and have 3 servings of healthy oils.

Excerpt from First Magazine Oct.26,2009

New Goals......

2009-10-06T11:22:00.006-05:00

If I was a bird I'm sure I would look like this. Little wings and legs (big butt and gut). This is the bird that sits on the ledge next to my desk at work.

I would love to tell you that all my weight has magically dropped off and I don't have to work at it any more. It wouldn't be true but I would love to tell you that anyway.

Here's my game plan:

1. Write down everything that goes into my mouth. I do well when I actually do this. It's the days that forget to do that and forget that calories add up quickly when I'm not conscious of what goes into it.

2. STOP EATING AFTER 7 pm. ( Again, very effective if I actually observe this rule!)

3. Limit Sweets, breads, ice cream, cheese, and peanut butter. ( Again, very effective if I actually do it. Even a little of the above is enough to sabotage my dietary efforts.)

4. Go to bed earlier. ( Grazing at night is killing my progress!)

5. Eat much slower, stop frequently, stop before I'm full. (Mr. Wonderful eats quickly and I need to stop trying to keep up with him. I'm learning to take food with me if we are on the road and which food I can order if we are eating out.)

6. Get more Active. ( I set my timer now and get up and move around at least every half hour, even if it's only to dance around the kitchen or my office.)

7. Wear my pedometer and shoot for a goal of 10,000 steps. Statistics show that people who wear a pedometer average at least 2000 more steps than those that don't. I think it makes you more conscious to move around.

8. Dig out my exercise tapes and do them at least 3 times a week. ( Again, only effective if I actually do them. Leslie Sansone was looking at me very accusingly ....or was that my imagination?)

9. Make up turkey-veggie chili and have it available for snacking. It's good, hot, filling, lots of veggies and fiber. I think you spend more calories digesting it than you take in. But I need to do all the cooking on the weekend when I have more time.

10. Limit computer or TV time. I can easily get caught up and forget all my good intentions.

My new goal is to be below 200 pounds by my birthday .....November 19th

Daisy Dilemma: Can I do this? YES I CAN....with God, nothing is impossible.

Easter Parade Here I Come!

2009-04-08T09:25:00.003-05:00

Easter hat parades got their start in New York City in the mid-1800s, when the lower and middle class would watch a spectacle of cosmopolitan socialites drifting down the avenue after Easter church services. The elite wore their Sunday best, including bonnets, top hats and chapeaus of all styles, colors and embellishments, and began a tradition known as the Easter parade. The tradition was immortalized in the movie "Easter Parade" with Judy Garland and Fred Astaire, and today, people from all walks of life stroll down fifth Avenue on Easter wearing flamboyant hat creations.

This Daisy would give up chocolate Easter bunnies and all the goodies of the Easter Basket to go. I'm sure I can talk Suzy into going....Mr. Wonderful may be a little more difficult. I can see me there with a Daisy Hat of some kind can't you. Where's Melli when you need her?

Daisy Dilemma: What kind of hat should I wear?

Finally

2009-03-13T09:56:00.001-05:00

You Are Chocolate

You are dramatic, charming, and downright addicting.

You have a strong personality, and and people are drawn to your fabulousness.

You are stimulating and exciting. It's hard to get tired of you.

You are incredibly likable and popular. You live a glorious life.

Are You Chocolate or Vanilla?

Finally, you know if you take enough of these silly quizzes you are bound to get the results you were looking for all along. Whew! Now my life can go on knowing that I'm stimulating and exciting and live a glorious life!

2009-03-13T09:35:00.002-05:00

You Are White Chocolate

You are White Chocolate

You are sweet, caring, and truly very innocent.

Whether your naive ways are a bit of act or not, people like to take care of you.

You are a quiet flirt, and your power is often underestimated!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

I can't seem to win. I took this quiz on what kind of chocolate are you and I'm vanilla chocolate. Is it because I'm a very white woman or what? I'm doomed to be vanilla in a chocolate world.
If I have to be vanilla can I have some sprinkles please?

Hmm.....have you noticed all these dessert quizzes. Can you tell I miss sweets?

Daisy Dilemma: Does dreaming about chocolate, cupcakes, and ice cream give you heavy dreams? Do you wake up full, hungry, or weighing more than when you went to bed?

New Attitude

2009-03-12T14:17:00.000-05:00

Well the scale is moving in the correct direction (to the left) and I'm starting to get excited about it. I'm soon to be the lightest I've been in over 20 years! I told Mr. Wonderful when that magic number appears on the scale I expect a whole York peppermint patty all to my self. (We usually split one!)

I've asked Joyce (she sorts clothes at the mission) to start looking for some size 18's for me. She knows me well and usually picks out just exactly what I would choose. It's nice not to have to run out and invest in a new wardrobe especially if I don't plan on being this size for long.

I've been really watching what goes in my mouth. We have been doing a lot of stir fry lately. I'm totally in love with the new steamed veggies that you can pull from the freezer and throw into the microwave. They taste just as good as fresh and are quick and easy after working all day.

I'm totally in love with Sugar Free Jello. Have you tried the Gogi Berry? It's really good.

Eating with chopped sticks has helped too. I'm not very good with them so it really slows down my food consumption. Since starting to use them I've not had any incidents of feeling choked . (Of course it could be because I given up bread and how much rice can you pick up with chop sticks?)

I've been trying to get 10,000 steps in a day so I'm wearing a pedometer. I usually get in 4 to 6 thousand . So I'm stepping up my stepping.

I'm so Vanilla

2009-03-12T12:55:00.001-05:00

You Are a Vanilla Cupcake

You are very sweet and mellow. You are easy going and easy to like.

You are drawn to those stronger personalities. You get along with powerful people.

You are like a cupcake because you appeal to almost every type of person.

You are friendly and accepting. You bring out other people's best qualities.

What Flavor Cupcake Are You?

Now I ask you....Can this girl get any more vanilla? I was hoping for at least chocolate with sprinkles. Sigh, you know me though, never met a cupcake I didn't like.

I'm a Vanilla Girl

2009-03-05T11:58:00.001-05:00

You Are Vanilla

You are a delightful, friendly person. You are optimistic about life and people.

You are enthusiastic and energetic. You enjoy everything you do.

You are cooperative and flexible. You get along with people from many walks of life.

You're not a show off. Instead, you're more likely to help other people shine.

Are You Chocolate or Vanilla?

A Delicious Book

2009-02-18T14:35:00.002-05:00

Is it back sliding when you automatically are drawn to books about food? They say you can't tell a book by it's cover but I am attracted to books with french pastry on the cover.

Yes, dear reader, just like Pavlov's dogs I begin to drool at the mere thought of french pastries so of course I was a goner when I saw this book at the library. I checked it out and was delightfully surprised that I enjoyed it so much.

The story is about a 20 something girl who moves to France to attend a Culinary school and become a pastry chef. It deals with many issues, such as loneliness, uncertainty, as well as adapting to a foreign culture .

What I especially liked about this book is the author's perspective of "Where is God in all of this?" Lexi, finds a church that has services in English and reaches out to French speaking people with an offer to learn and practice English as a way to get better jobs.

One thing the heroine learns is that "food taste better when you are hungry." Lexi is away from her friends, family and culture and discovers that God can be heard more clearly when He is all that is left. The book was entertaining as well as uplifting. (not to mention .....some killer reciepes!)

Give Me Chocolate and No on gets hurt!

2009-02-16T10:01:00.002-05:00

Exactly one year ago I had lap-band surgery. Now 55 pounds later I can say it was worth it. I still struggle with my weight and will always have to be diligent in making wise choices.

Before I had the surgery I was told that this surgery is a tool. It helps but you still have to do the work . I still have to drag my body around and make it exercise.

Eating is a challenge. I am cooking more than I ever have. My capacity is limited but I still can eat things that are fattening (I usually pay a price for it but you know me....I always have to push the limits.)

Mr. Wonderful gave me Ghiradeli Intense Dark Chocolate. It is full of antioxidants and better for you. It's actually on the flat belly diet. As you can see....I'm a little over anxious to dig in!

I did pretty well at my mom's house. Of course she didn't listen and made our favorite dishes. I did eat them but had small portions. I haven't weighed because I'm in denial right now. It was a good visit though and she is in good spirits.

So today is Monday.....My traditional day for getting back to the diet. So here's to the next 55 pounds and hopefully more.

Daisy Dilemma: What day of the week do you usually start your diet?

The saga continues.....

2009-02-12T11:57:00.003-05:00

Oh No! How come every time you think you've come across something really good some body ( Mr. Wonderful) has to squash it?

Mr. Wonderful gave me several websites and even printed them out that says the Flat Belly Diet is a scam.

The reasons listed were :

1. The book cost 31.95 ( I bought Woman's World at the grocery store for $1.79)

2. One author claimed, "We have found the cure for belly fat." ( I agree that this is a red flag statement, anything that sounds too good to be true usually is.)

3. No exercise needed ( but highly recommended). ( always read the fine print.)

4. The basic diet is one of calorie restriction. ( well, duh? That's why it is called a diet!)

5. Every meal should have a MUFA (MonoUnsaturatedFattyAcid). This is a dead give away for a scam because it's the part where they put in the "magic" ( MUFA's are part of the so-called good fats.They come in 5 groups...certain nuts, certain oils, seeds, olives, avocodos, and dark chocolate. These foods are also found in the Mediterranean diet what has long been known to provide health benefits.

6. The diet alleges to hone in on belly fat. If you restrict your diet you will lose weight and some of it will come off your belly as well as other parts of your body. ( All I know is that I've lost 4 pounds and 2 inches off my belly and no where else.)

Over all there was nothing dangerous or bad about the diet. Everyone agrees restricted calories, exercise and good fats are healthy. No food group is restricted such as breads or fruits in low carb diets.

Bear in mind.....It seems to be working for me. I'm not hungry, I've had a small measure of success already, we are incorporating more vegetables in our diet and stir frying is fun, easy and tasty. The coconut oil is available locally, and any diet that tells me I need to eat two muffins a day is a winner in my book. We are also eating with chopped sticks . It gives the meal a little extra challenge and since I'm not good with chopsticks it certainly slows down my eating. So far it's all good. I'll keep you posted .

I'm melting.....

2009-02-11T18:38:00.003-05:00

I'm melting, melting.....ok, so maybe not as fast as I would like but I've lost an inch from my waist and so has Mr. Wonderful. I thought it was pretty good considering we've only been on this diet (Flat belly Diet) since Sunday.

I lost 4 pounds instantly. Mr. Wonderful conveniently forgot to weigh himself before we started. I pretty much stick close to the diet. He has modified it a great deal but does a lot of loading, lifting and physical work so burns the extra calories.

We've been having egg beaters with cheese in the morning using the coconut oil for cooking. Since we go through 4 muffins a day I baked two dozen yesterday just to get us through the weekend. In the evening I've been stir frying with the coconut oil. So it's going really well. We are eating better than we normally do and already seeing results. I'm a happy camper!

The spoiler will be this weekend. We are going to see my mom so it will be interesting to see how close we can stick to it and not be offensive to my mom.

Sigh, Raise your right hand and repeat: I will not eat things that will hamper my weight loss just to make my momma happy!

Daisy Dilemma: Other than" just say no" do you have any suggestions for turning down "your very favorite, I made it just for you thing?"

It's Simple!

2009-02-10T11:45:00.004-05:00

Sounds like good advice. How come everything that taste good is usually bad for you. Seems like I've been gaining and losing the same 4 pounds for weeks now. I lose it.....indulge....gain it back....work really hard...lose it... indulge....gain it back.....do you see a pattern here?

Seems I'm always looking (wishing) for a way to lose weight without any effort on my part. I know it won't happen but I'm the eternal optimist.

My "latest fad" is coconut oil. The Columbia University Flat-belly diet. According to Dr. Oz belly fat is really bad for you and can lead to heart attacks, strokes, etc. The diet is 1500 calories a day and four belly-flattening teaspoons of coconut oil.

Breakfast: 1 egg scrambled with 1 Tbs. low-fat cheese, 1 cup berries, 1 Belly Flattening Muffin or 1 apple with1 Tbs peanut butter, 1 cup lite yogurt, 1 belly flattening muffin or
1 cup fat free milk, 1 banana, 1 belly flattening muffin.

Morning Snack: 1 Super belly flattening muffin

Lunch: 1/2 can water packed tuna, 1/4 cup diced vegetables, 1 Tbs lite Mayo, 1 slice Fat-free cheese, 1 whole wheat pita, 3/4 cup grapes or

2/3 cup cooked whole wheat pasta, 1/4 cup each sliced carrots, bell peppers,celery, and low-fat cheese, 2 Tbs lite dressing , 1 pear or

2 oz lean deli meat, 1 diced hard boiled egg, 1/4 cup low fat cheese, 3 cups salad, 2 Tbs lite dressing, 4 whole-grain crackers or 1/2 whole-wheat pita

Dinner: 3 Oz skinless chicken breast chucks, 1-2 cups frozen Asian -style veggies and 1 tsp garlic stir-fried in 2-3 Tbs. low sodium soy sauce with 2 tsp. coconut oil, 3/4 cup brown rice. or

3 oz lean steak, 1 Tbs Worcestershire sauce, 1 cup sliced mushrooms sauteed in 1 tsp coconut oil, 1 small baked sweet potato, 1 tsp coconut oil, 1 cup green beans. or

6 oz cod or flounder broiled with 1 tsp. coconut oil and seasoning to taste, 3/4 cup brown rice or boiled potato with 1 tsp coconut oil and 1 Tbs.Parmesan, 1 cup steamed broccoli

Snack: choose one daily
2 Tbs raisins, 8 almonds, 8 tiny pretzel twists or
1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2 cup berries, 1 Tbs. sunflower seeds or
2/3 coup light yogurt, 1/3 chopped fruit, 2 tbs low-fat granola

Taken from Woman's World Front Page Feb.16

"Discover the little-known cooking oil that Melts 6 pounds and 3 inches of belly fat a week! Use it instead of olive oil or vegetable oil ....and lose up to 130 pounds"

Super Belly Flattening Muffins:

1 1/2 cup all-purpose flour
1 cup oatmeal
1/2 cup sugar
1 Tbs. baking powder
1/2 cup raisins
1 cup fat-free milk
1/4 cup melted coconut oil
1 egg lightly beaten
1 tsp. vanilla

Heat oven to 400 degrees. Mist muffin tin with cooking spray. In a large bowl, mix flour, oatmeal, sugar, baking powder and raisins. In small bowl, blend milk, oil, egg and vanilla. Add to dry ingredients;stir until just moistened. Fill 12 muffin cups almost full. Bake 18 to 20 minutes. Cool on wire rack 5 minutes. Remove from pan

Make 'em from a mix

Start with a fat-free mix that makes 12 muffins, such as Krsteaz Fat-free Cranberry-Orange Muffins. Prepare batter according to package instructions, then stir in an extra 1/4 cup melted coconut oil.

What the heck....I started it yesterday and lost the 4 pounds I gained. It doesn't taste bad, I like a diet that say you must eat 2 muffins a day! Supposedly it suppose to help you store less fat, burn extra calories, target you tummy flab and feel less hungry.

My grocery store carries coconut oil so I don't have to mail order it. Why not try.

Mr. Wonderful saw a young man at church the other day with a very large belly. He looked at me and said, "Don't ever let me get like that." So....he is on the same diet with moderation. He even let me measure his waist so we'll see if it works.

Daisy Dilemma: If it's too good to be true would you try it?

Woo Hoo....finally got it right

2009-01-31T22:42:00.003-05:00

Two days in a row that Leslie and I did our walk. Ok, so I'm into small goals. I actually went to sleep earlier last night and got up in time to do my two mile walk with Leslie before we headed out the door to work at the mission.

We had a group of ladies that boxed clothing till about 1 p.m. I actually got my 10,000 steps in and made good choices.

I had a serious talk with Mr. Wonderful. My nature is to be a people pleaser and I've been trying to work around his schedule rather than what is the best for me. It takes me a good 30 minutes to eat a very simple small meal. If I rush it, I get chocked or feel horrible for a good hour after wards. He gulps down a whole meal in 5 minutes or less some times and is out the door to another activity. I can no longer do that.....so I told him maybe that's why God gave us two cars (so he doesn't have to wait on me) . He says he understands but I'm sure he doesn't. So I am totally being selfish from here on out. If I'm late, I'm late and he can go on ahead.

I wrote down all my eating in a food diary, wrote down my exercise routine, got all my vitamins, Calcium and supplements in as well as got all my liquids down. We will see if it has any impact on the scale now.

This is me going to bed before 11pm.

Daisy Dilemma: Is this the start of a new habit or merely a flux?

The walking continues....

2009-01-30T13:21:00.003-05:00

Just finished a two mile walk with Leslie. She has a new video out now that targets Hips and Thighs. Right in line with my "Lose your behind in 2009" goals. Not only is it broken down into a 2 mile walk but also has 23 minutes of toning with resistant bands included on the video.

This particular video is just Leslie without a class of people behind her. I actually liked it better because it's almost like having a personal trainer one on one.

I'm trying to get in 10,000 steps in each day. I usually don't make it except on the days I walk with Leslie. I really need to be more disciplined and get up earlier so I can get the walk in before we leave for the mission. By the time we get home at night I just want to curl up in my favorite chair and relax.

I also need to drink more. I can't eat and drink at the same time so I forget to drink. I know that sound lame but it is true. Also I don't want to go to the bathroom at the Mission because it is not heated and sitting on a cold commode is really uncomfortable and it takes me a long time to warm up again.

I know I need to make careful choices of what I eat and drink and I need to move more.

Daisy Dilemma: If I already know what I'm supposed to be doing, why don't I just do it?

Lose Your Behind in 2009

2009-01-11T23:22:00.004-05:00

I'm home and I'm ready to get serious about exercise and watching what I eat. I didn't gain any weight over Christmas but I certainly didn't lose any either. I ate pretty much what I wanted .....but definitely not as much!

The Christmas cookies, pies, and goodies have all been consumed and the left over Chocolate has been hidden in the freezer where it is at least out of sight.

I got to thinking the other day that our guest room is only used three or four times a year so we have decided to take the bed down and use it for our exercise equipment. It can be quickly converted back to a bedroom whenever we need it but I am pretty sure we would use the room more if it had the exercise bike, mini trampoline, and DVD player and TV for exercise videos. I can use the dresser to store exercise videos, hand weights, and stretch bands and can walk with Leslie in there minus all the furniture that is in the living room. Mr. Wonderful thinks it's a good idea for now too.

I saw Ricard Simmons on a morning news program while I was in New York. He was on a campaign against childhood obesity. He is 60 years old now and "Lose your behind in 2009" was his slogan. I thought it was a good one to incorporate into my diet plan.

I keep waiting for my behind to fall off but looks like I'll actually have to work to get it to go away. I bought some new exercise videos today for some more variety. One is a Leslie Simmons tape with a two mile walk along with 21 minutes of lower body toning. So here's to having a smaller behind in 2009!

Daisy Dilemma: What are your health goals for the new year?

All that and Chocolate Cake too!

2008-11-21T22:34:00.003-05:00

What cool candles.....spiral ones! Who knew that
there would be a chocolate cake in my future?
Yes, it is a well documented fact that I love cake!
I settled for half a brownie for lunch thinking that it would be my birthday dessert.

I was waiting all day for Melli to come.....I even woke up several times during the night cause I was so excited about her arrival. When she called at 11 a.m. my first question was...."Why aren't you in my drive way?" (not that I'm demanding or excited).

I would love to tell you that I didn't overeat at all...but it wouldn't be true. However, there is only so much over eating I can do now days. I probably didn't make the best choices but I figured that my birthday only happens once a year. Red Lobster was divine! Charlie and I shared a meal and the appetizers were yummy!

I've decided that friendship is so much better than anything on a plate. Thanks Melli for coming to see me and making my birthday really special.

Daisy dilemma: Do you like to be surprised or would you rather relish the anticipation of an event?

Count down to my birthday.....

2008-11-18T13:39:00.003-05:00

This is actually starting to look like me. I like that there is a plus size avatar and one with gray hair too. We had a skiff of snow on the car this morning as we headed out to the mission. My office is not heated other than a plug in heater so I'm actually looking more like "the abdominal" snowman with lots of layers and a hat on.

My birthday is tomorrow. I got a poster with lots of cute Oscar pictures from Suzy. It says Diva's Little Man. I have it up on my bulletin board at work with all my other pictures. I should put up a sign that says "Ask me about my grand babies!" But then again with all my gallery of pictures it probably already says that without the actual words.

Not much going on here today. My cooking episode was a great success. I may have to try that again next week.

Daisy Dilemma: What do you do when you don't have the technical ability to use what you want for your birthday?

Still wishing.....

2008-11-17T20:39:00.002-05:00

I saw this over at Sandy's and wondered if this is what my cats go through. Probably not since Charlie is the one that usually feeds them in the morning.

I keep waiting for my rear to fall off. My sister lost her butt really quickly.....I keep wondering if I'll wake me up one day and my pants will fall down as I won't have hips to hold them up.

Right now it seems to be just wishful thinking

I started exercising again.....I walked two miles with Leslie. I was impressed how much easier it was to walk and exercise now than it used to be.

Today was spent cooking. I made a weeks worth of food so at least I know what I can eat and it's pre-made.

Charlie got me a 4 inch cake for my birthday. I already ate it.....it was good. So much for my cake obsession till next year.

Daisy Dilemna: Do you have a food you obcess about?

Shopping in my Attic

2008-10-24T12:32:00.003-05:00

Well, it's official it's in the 20's today so my summer clothes have got to go. I boxed them all up never to return to me again. By next summer they will be way to big and there's no need to haul them up to the attic any more.

I went shopping in my attic this morning. I have several sizes of clothes upstairs including really nice clothing that my sister gave me after her surgery. I tried them on and was surprised that several were way too big too. Hey, that never happened before! I have hung on to way too many clothes so tried things on this morning and if I'm not in love with the way it looks on me it's been packed off to the mission. I'd rather have a few clothes that fit well and look good than a whole closet full on items I don't like.

I've kept a few items that are the next size down within easy reach so I can check on my progress. I'm packing my bags for New York while I go through all these clothes. I'm leaving in the morning to spend time with my daughter and new grandson.

I'm also taking my laptop so I'll be sure to post pictures.

Daisy Dilemma: Have you ever saved clothes thinking you'll wear them again when you lose a few pounds and then found out that you don't like the outfit once you can wear it again?

Soup-er

2008-10-22T12:21:00.002-05:00

As the fall weather turns cooler I've been turning to soup to warm me up at lunch time. I work in an area that is not heated well so I'm always cold.

I made some vegetable chilli and found some really good soup from V8 that are vegetable based. It helps with getting enough fluids too. Since it usually makes a cup, I share it with Mr. Wonderful. Soup and a sandwich goes over pretty well for my hardworking guy.

Our food bills have been cut in half since my capacity is so limited and since I started cooking casseroles and putting them up in individual portions. I'm making up Italian sausage and red rice and beans while I'm gone.

I've been eating a pack of peanut butter crackers with my soup to get in my protein. So far it has worked out well and I look forward to something hot at noon.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you remember the book "Stone Soup"? I wonder if that concept would work well with a small group dinner? Just a thought!

Great Discoveries that I have made

2008-10-19T20:11:00.003-05:00

Alright....so some of the discoveries that I made recently maybe weren't brilliant and certainly wouldn't win me a Nobel Peace Prize but they have been life changing for me.

These are some of my diet discoveries:

Eat only things that you really like....don't waste the calories on something that doesn't satisfy your taste buds.

2. The first two bites of a dessert are the best and the rest will not satisfy you nearly as much as the first two. Always stop wanting more.

3. Approach food reverently, it is a gift from God not to carelessly consumed without thought.

4. Eat slowly, put you fork down in between bites, enjoy the conversation around you.

5. Avoid bread, pasta, and noodles and rice.

6. Drink slowly also.

7. Don't keep foods that are high in calories (such as candy, chocolate, nuts ) within sight or easy reach. It's too easy to fill up on them and not get in your protein.

8. Carry something to drink to work with you and work on it all day. It will keep you hydrated and full.

9. Stop before you are full. You can always eat more later. Overfilling is painful and causes great distress.

10. Know the difference in "head hunger" and physical hunger.

Daisy Dilemma: Does anyone else find candy corn addicting?

Good-bye fast food

2008-10-15T09:34:00.002-05:00

On our recent trip to Alabama I ran into trouble trying to come up with something that I can actually eat. Any thing with a bun or bread is out. That also includes pasta and rice and of course pizza.

I had a child's plate of grilled chicken fingers and applesauce and actually got chocked on it. I'm pretty sure it was because I was really hungry and ate it too quickly but I paid for my indiscretion for several hours afterward.

I'm having to relearn a number of lessons. I am finding out that I need to be very deliberate in my choices and slow way down when I eat. Going out to eat is really more scary now and not the treat it once was. I have a hard time with salads too.

Daisy Dilemma: Who knew that going out to dinner would be scarier than Halloweeen?

Final Adjustment.....

2008-10-07T22:24:00.004-05:00

Ok, that's exactly where I am.....and this cartoon even looks like me (how sad is that!) Friday I made the trek over to Charlottesville to see my doctor and make another lap band adjustment.

I had talked with my sister who had the procedure done about 2 years ago and compared notes with her as to what she can eat without problems and realized that I was able to eat much more.

Not any more. I really think I am where I'm supposed to be now. I can eat a half cup and be totally satisfied for four hours or more. I'm having trouble getting all my liquids in as you can't eat and drink at the same time.

I'm eating much slower and stopping much sooner than ever before. I have had several episodes of choking which is not pleasant at all.

I really think I'm hard headed. If I know what my limits are I'll stay with them rather than try to push the limit and be physically ill. I've lost four pound since Friday....it's really nice to see the scale going in the right direction now.

My mom and sister are coming tomorrow and Thursday we go on a road trip to Alabama. I've already got my meals planned and even got some meals frozen for when we get back. I finally think I'm on the right track now. Thank you God!

Daisy Dilemma: Life would be so much easier if I wasn't so hard headed!

10 Foods that make me happy...

2008-09-09T15:02:00.015-05:00

10 Foods that make me happy!

1. Birthday cake....I even like the sugar free birthday cake ice cream. I don't eat it any more but if I dream of food , biscuits and birthday cake are always in them.

2. Bananas.....I'm bananas over bananas but I like them on the green side and not overly ripe.

3. Cashew nuts...I love unsalted nuts. They are such a great treat!

4. Orville Redenbacher's Smart Pop Kettle Corn....love the sweet and salty combination for only 100 calories. I can eat pop corn without any problems of choking.

5. Pringles Vanilla Stixs....they kind of taste like vanilla wafers. I can eat crackers and crisp things and these taste good and satisfy my crunch factor.

6. Quaker Mini Delights "Chocolate Mint" rice cakes. ..just enough chocolate to make them yummy and the rice is crunchy (not like eating Styrofoam).

7. Watermelon....Yummmmm. I eat one every week. Whatever will I do this winter?

8. Yoplait light Fat Free yogurt that comes in 28 flavors now. Love White Chocolate Strawberry, Boston Cream Pie, Key Lime Pie, Apple Turnover, Rasberry Cheesecake etc.

9. Wheat Thins Chips....between a chip and a cracker. They are great to eat your tuna fish on since bread is no longer in my diet.

10. York Peppermint Patty (Sugar Free) ...my new tasty treat at only 80 calories. I can have one every day.

Choking is not fun!

2008-09-08T16:35:00.004-05:00

Well, I finally figured out that my lap band is working. I found out by having a severe choking sensation this after noon. It eventually passed but I know now that I can't eat flat bread without dire consequences. Anything that forms a soft ball can be hazardous.

I had gotten careless as I haven't had that problem in the six month that I've had the lab band. I need to slow down my eating. Cut things into smaller pieces and chew more thoroughly. I'm a believer!

Did you know that when you are choking you produce a lot of saliva? Just thought you'd like to know so you don't have to experience it for yourself.

Daisy Dilemma: Why do I always have to test the limits?

Can I get a recount?

2008-09-05T15:21:00.004-05:00

Went to see my doctor today in Charlottesville and I was robbed of 4 pounds by their scales. I weighed myself on a balance beam scale before I left and the car ride didn't add four extra pounds.

No one fussed except me, because I did so much better than what I got credit for.....can I get a recount? I weighed on another balance beam scale back at work and weighed the same as I did before leaving. Is the gravitational pull more on the other side of the mountain?

I had more saline added to the lap band so now I have to wait and see if it will help. I do know that I need to push away from the table and exercise some portion control. I tend to see just how much I can eat before really reaching my limit .

I go back in six weeks so I'm trying to see if I can lose at least 10 pounds by then.

Daisy Dilemma: Why am I so hard headed? It's not like I don't know how to diet!

Yep, That's pretty much describes it!

2008-07-23T08:09:00.002-05:00

After all the exercise I got this past weekend in Philadelphia I decided it was time to bump up my exercise level to the 2 mile walk with Leslie.

Bear in mind I have not been able to do the 2 mile walk since my knee accident a year ago. What the heck, why not try it at least. I know I did 9 and a half miles in 95 + heat.....so how bad could it be?

They say a picture it worth a thousand words!

I did manage to complete the work out but I am certainly feeling the results right now.

I hate being such a powder puff. So, I guess I'll drag my body back this morning to see if it will get any easier.

Daisy Dilemma: Part of my exercise dilemma is that I have never yet found a form of exercise that I truly enjoy rather than just being endured. Any suggustions?

Lap Band Check up

2008-07-22T06:28:00.004-05:00

I'm back in my nest after a whirlwind trip to Philadelphia. I also had a check up on Friday at University of Virginia and had more saline injected into the lap band.

The purpose is to keep food in the pouch longer, thus making you feel full longer. I was able to lose 10 pounds since my last visit which was nothing short of a miracle.

I was so glad not to have gained weight from all our travels and bad choices .

So here's to more exercise, better choices, and slowly getting my body back.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you preplan your food and snacks for the week? I seemed to do much better when I do plan, and cook things ahead. I also do better when I record what I've eaten each day.

Visualizing

2008-07-10T12:05:00.002-05:00

Time for a little dreaming here.....What can I see myself doing when I'm leaner? You Got It! Walking arm in arm with my sweetie of 35 years. Taking more trips, being more active and more adventuresome.

I'm hoping our Phily trip will be one of many romantic get aways.

Our anniversary is the 14th but our trip is scheduled for the following weekend. We are planning a long weekend coming back on the following Monday.

Work at ETS is physically demanding and it seems when we are home we are bombarded by all the household chores that need tending to. I'm hoping being away from our routine will promote some deeper conversations and prompt some casting visions and dreaming dreams about our future.

Soon to see Liberty Bell....

2008-07-04T10:29:00.003-05:00

Yes, it's the liberty bell in Philadelphia and I'm going to see it this month as well as Independence Hall, Betsy's Ross' house, Franklin Institute , National Constitution Center as well as answering the age old question "Who makes the best Philly Beef and Cheese Steak sandwich..Pat or Geno?

Mr. Wonderful is out puttering in the garage so I spent my "8 Minutes with Jeorge" 15 minutes with Leslie and another 10 minutes becoming a Latin Dancer Contortionist . I'm in my cool down period now, rehydrating, and of course blogging. My BP has been remarkable the last couple of days and it looks like I may be able to cut back on some of my medications soon.

I've decided to wait till the 8th to weigh again as it will be a week. I know I've already dropped 4 pounds,now I just need to be diligent with my exercise and careful on my food choices and portions. I'm hoping to throw another 1 mile walk in the mix later this afternoon while Mr. Wonderful is somewhere on the Southern Coast of France lost in adventures with his pile of books or puttering around in his basement in the man cave.

Hope your day was glorious and filled with fun and food.

Third day and still going strong.....

2008-07-03T11:08:00.004-05:00

Just finished walking with Leslie in my living room. She looked fresh as a daisy.....I was one droopy daisy! I started with the one mile walk and the first day had to use my cane to get through it. Yesterday I was able to get through the whole thing without the use of my cane....(and the Rocky Balboa came out in me..cue the music!)

"Wooohooo" I thought, "I bet I could do this tomorrow with the hand weights." So I added 3 pound hand weights today and did manage to finish the one mile walk without the cane but I'm certainly not fresh as a daisy....as a matter of fact I hear the shower calling my name.

I've been trying to add other forms of exercise in addition to walking with Leslie. Today I also found my copy of "8 Minutes in the Morning" and did the first strength training exercises. It took me 20 minutes (but that's cause I had to find the hand weights that I tossed under the bed and then I had to get all the dust bunnies off them. Did I mention that it took me 10 minutes just to get off the floor?)

Yesterday I got my copy of Core Rthymns in the mail. So this morning I started my career as a Latin Dancer. Considering I have no rthymn, a huge core, sagging muscles under an ample protective layer of fat, boobs that bob up and down with the music, an umbilical hernia , don't know right from left and have a bum knee....I did really well. As you might have guessed I'm in the Kick Start section of the DVD where I'm beginning to kick myself for starting it. However it was fun and will certainly help whittle away my middle not to mention get Mr. Wonderful all hot and sweaty (and he wasn't even exercising!) The music makes you want to move and it is something very different that I can do at home . The moves are really exaggerated so it's a good thing I can do this in the privacy of my home without having to send my exercise partners into therapy.

I lost another pound....what if it is water? It still counts and I'll take all the help I can get!

We are still planning our trip to Philadelphia and I'm planning on running (or maybe a slower amble) the steps made famous the Rocky films, leading up to the Philadelphia Museum of Art! Don't worry I'll have the EMS service nearby. It probably won't be as dramatic as it was in the movie but it will still be one small victory.

Daisy Dilemma: What do you see yourself doing that will really push you?

Exercising paying off....

2008-07-02T08:41:00.002-05:00

OK, so I've been really diligent for one whole day!

I exercised with Leslie, and rode my exercise bike on the front porch while reading a delicious Southern Mystery. Looking at this cartoon I think I'm glad that my stationery bike doesn't give the population of New Hope a rear view look. I'm pretty sure my backside looks like two bowling balls colliding . In other words, it's not a pretty sight.

So far, I've been checking off my "To Do List" and feeling pretty good about myself. I lost 3 pounds since yesterday. I know, I know, you think it has to be water. Here's my thoughts on it, if you lose weight it's fat.....If you gain it, it's water! That's my story and I'm sticking to it. I'm hoping to lose 10 pounds in the next 3 weeks. Thanks for the "WaaaHooo's" I was surprised and delighted to know that there are people out there in blogland that actually read these posts.

I've got to get up and get going. I've set the timer for an hour and every time it rings I've got to get up and complete another task on my ever growing "TO Do" list. Yesterday I cut up a watermelon into chunks that are perfect for snacking. Did you know you can eat a whole cup for 45 calories? I'm soooo in love with this delicious treat.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you think you can dance for exercise? I just ordered Core rhythms for something new to add to my exercise routine. I'll let you know if it works.

Still casting a wide shadow....

2008-07-01T14:12:00.003-05:00

Yep, that's my shadow.....maybe I should hire myself out for shade at picnics. I've only lost 6 pounds in the last 2 months. I see the surgeon on July 18th so I'm really trying hard to lose another 10 pounds in the next three weeks.

We spent the last two months traveling, visiting, eating out, eating too much, making lots of desserts, eating fast food and not paying much attention to what I've been eating .

That all changes today. I'm really being very diligent and stepping up my exercise level too.

I have made some observations about myself that I seem to forget frequently so I'm listing them here just in case I'm with you should one of these foods pop up .

Notes to Myself:

1. No matter how good it smells, and no matter if it's slathered in cheese and Mr. Wonderful eats them everyday ......YOU DON'T LIKE MARIE CALLENDAR'S POT PIES. (They are too salty for your taste).

2. YOU DON'T LIKE FAKE MASHED POTATOES....which is the main ingredient in KFC's Famous Chicken bowls. Are you crazy?....Fried Anything will kick your butt.

3. A Grilled Chick-fil-a (without Cheese) and fruit salad (instead of French fries ) is only 350 calories and much better for you.

4. Dairy Queen Moo-lattes are heavenly but the small drink also contains 570 calories!

5. A DQ Chicken Finger Basket is too much food and you will be tempted to eat it too fast.....it leads to chocking and horrible sensations. STAY AWAY FROM IT. Try the chicken finger wrap with ranch dressing (trust me on this you'll thank me later.)

I blew the dust off my Walk Away the Pounds Video and actually did the 1 mile walk this morning. If you are reading this leave me a Waaa HOO !

Daisy Dilemma: How do you get yourself motivated when you've taken a very long detour?

Home again....

2008-05-24T15:19:00.003-05:00

I took this picture on River Street at Savannah Sweets....seems like I took more pictures of food than I did of people. Hmmm.....I wonder what if that is significant?

I finally decided to order whatever I really wanted especially after I discovered that I would be eating it for at least 3 meals. That worked very well for me. I still feel stuffed and like I should never have to eat again.

I didn't lose any weight this week but I didn't gain any either.....so I'm okay with that!

Miss Emma arrives Tuesday evening so I'm sure my activity will increase with running after the divine Miss "Em".

Everybody's favorite lunch date.....

2008-05-19T22:37:00.003-05:00

What a flurry of activity. I seem to be everyone's favorite lunch date this week. So far I've eaten out at four different places and it's just Monday. I'm sure this will play havoc with my diet. It's been good to see old friends and renew acquaintances. I just wish I could spread out this whirlwind of activity out a little better. I know there will be some long dry spells ahead.

Wish you were here to add to the fun . More later.

When food goes bad.....

2008-05-05T10:38:00.002-05:00

It's been a while since I posted here but it has been an exciting week of self revelation . When I got back from my Mom's house I gained 3 pounds and of course I blamed the food, then I blamed the lap band, then I blamed the circumstances and emotional eating. I blamed the lap band website that helps you track your intake for being hard to use and then I blamed my knee for not full cooperating with my exercise routine. The only thing I didn't blame was my ability to push away from the table.

The Lord has been gently reminding me that all these excuses are just that excuses. So I've been making better choices and wouldn't you know it....the lap band website has been updated to make it much more user friendly. I can actually record what I'm eating and enter food that is not in the data base. It will be a great help next time I go for a doctor's visit since the dietitian and the doctor can pull up my stats and food journal.

The past week I lost the 3 I gained previously and 3 more besides! It's nice to see the scale moving in the right direction for a change. My first big land mark is to get below 250 and Lord willing that should happen this week! Today I packed up all my winter clothes and I'm going through my spring and summer one now. So far I've lost two dress sizes so the clothes I'm packing will not ever be coming back in the house again.

I've decided to get rid a lot of clothing that I'm not really in love with....I'd rather have fewer clothes that I really like than lots of clothes I'm not happy with.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you celebrate reaching a big number or every 10 pounds?

Dieting 101

2008-04-29T11:53:00.003-05:00

Simple rules to concentrate on:

Eat only when my body is hungry: I often eat out of boredom or emotional eating.

Reduce the number of distractions while you eat: Allow yourself the pleasure of focusing on your meal. Be present at the meal...food is meant to be a pleasant experience. Taste, smell, savor each bite.

Eat while sitting down: Americans are famous for eating on the run, and much of our unconscious or mindless eating is done while driving.

Eat when your mind and body are relaxed. Take a quiet moment to invite the Lord of the wind and waves into your meal.

Eat and drink food and beverages that you enjoy: Too often, we get caught up in thinking we are "good" or "bad" based on what we eat. Food can't cleanse the heart no matter how little fat or how much fiber it contains. "For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. Romans 14:17"

Pay attention to my food while I am eating. Be intentional and make meals enjoyable.

Eat Slowly and enjoy each bite. Stop habitually inhaling your food. You will be surprised how little food it actually takes to satisfy your hunger. As you eat more slowly your stomach can accurately signal your brain as to when your physical need for food has been satisfied.

Stop before my body is "full". Stop at a point of comfort before your body is full or stuffed.

Daisy Dilemma: Something I need to remember" Everything is permissible for me"-but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible for me"-but I will not be mastered by anything. (1 Corinthians 6:12) What masters you?

Just Got back from visiting Mom....

2008-04-28T14:11:00.005-05:00

Going to visit Mom is like visiting Disney World. As soon as you enter the "kingdom" you are immediately ushered into sensory over load. Mom loves her family and always kills the "fatted calf" upon news of your immediate arrival. All of your favorite foods mysteriously appears on the table with an apology that if there is something missing she'll gladly get up and fix it for you.

How do graciously refuse a sacrifice of love from your 81 year old mother? Consequently I ate more than I should have and ate more often that I should have and it definitely showed up on the scale this morning.

I could go into a self loathing mode but have decided that I'll just have to go back to writing down what I eat and step up my exercise level. Today at the mission I set a timer and got up and either went out to the gym and packed a couple boxes of clothing, or got up and danced around the medical room while gathering supplies.

I've got my pedometer on today and I'm aiming at 10,000 steps by tonight. I may have to get up and go run around the building a couple of times to reach that goal.

Life is what you make it.

Daisy Dilemma: Do you become 10 years old whenever you are around your mother?

Off to the Beach

2008-04-24T07:51:00.003-05:00

Watch out world I'm heading to Virginia Beach this weekend.

That means my momma, home cooking, and the beach!

We leave this afternoon for a long weekend.

Going to catch some rays, and some waves!

Don't miss me too much!

What's your EQ?

2008-04-22T09:17:00.001-05:00

Your EQ is 140

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.

You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.

But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

The Biggest Loser.syndrome

2008-04-18T12:07:00.003-05:00

I admit to watching the Biggest Loser in my easy chair every week watching the contestants work out and sweat. The results have been dramatics for them but guess what....it hasn't motivated me to work out equally as hard.

We all like success stories but none of us like to put the work into it that will actually get us to that place. It was heart breaking to watch the girls work so hard and not get the dramatic results the guys got week after week.

The guys got really cocky and arrogant so it was thrilling for me to see a woman win the title for the first time in show's history. Jillian Michaels said it best “She’s a dream come true for me. I just think she’s inspiration incarnate and she’s sending a message to women out there that when you connect your mind and your body and your attention, anything is possible.”

I'm still working on getting the mind/body connection to work for me.

Daisy Dilemma: What keeps you motivated?

Just in case you were wondering?

2008-04-15T14:33:00.000-05:00

Created by OnePlusYou

Always good to know

2008-04-14T14:24:00.001-05:00

You Are 92% Good

You are not only a good person... you are a model citizen and a natural leader.

Whether you know it or not, your high moral standards and good judgment is truly rare.

You don't take ethical short cuts in life. You are able to do what's right - even when it's very difficult.

And while it may seem like no one else is as on track as you are, take heart in knowing that you set a good example for others.

You are also probably: Very sensitive and in tune with the world

Right now you are on track to being: A saint

To be a better person: Gently mentor someone who is taking the wrong path in life

How Good Are You?

My first fill up!

2008-04-12T10:38:00.002-05:00

Nope, not talking about having to take out a bank loan to put gasoline in our car. I'm talking about putting saline in the lap band. It was quite an experience but not really painful.

The surgical swelling is all gone now so food doesn't stay in the smaller pouch as long as it first did. Consequently I'm hungry faster and unfortunately can eat bigger portions.

To access the port they had me drink some strawberry flavored barium and I got to watch it go down using a fluoroscope . They stick a very long needle into the port and add saline. The cuff that lines the band fills with saline and the opening into the stomach grows smaller. The food stays in the pouch for longer periods of time because of the smaller opening. The whole thing took about 20 minutes and other than being poked by a needle it wasn't bad.

I'm on liquids and soft foods for the next day so of course we had to go to Sonic for a Lemon-Berry Cream Slush (after all it was Happy Hour!). I'm definitely not feeling hungry as often so am hopeful that maybe the weight will just fall of after all. HA!

Daisy Dilemma: What fills you up?

Not a pretty sight from the rear

2008-04-10T10:28:00.005-05:00

Yep, except for the red hair this could be me! I have an exercise bike on the front porch that every few hours I hop on and begin to pedal and pray. ( No....I'm not praying that I can get off the bike quickly or that I don't die while riding the crazy thing. ) I pray for everyone I know starting with my family and friends.

I've also been doing some prayer walking around the neighborhood and around the mission. Did I say walking (limping is more like it right now!)

Did I tell you I have a camo cane.....yep, I can sneak up on you and you won't even see me! Ok, maybe that was a slight exaggeration.
But it is a cool cane.....I may have matching ones for different outfits. Every girl needs accessories right?

Daisy Dilemma: I'm still wondering how much weight I have to lose before my knee start to notice.....a thank you note would be nice too.

Daisy and friends....

2008-04-09T08:50:00.003-05:00

This is a picture taken of me in Savannah last October. I felt more at home with the elephants than with any other animal group.

I watched Biggest Loser last night and they had each of the contestants put on a fat suit that was the amount of weight they had lost and the same portions as when they started. Each of them struggled with extra poundage and each found it more difficult to move and even breath.

I've had some set backs with some health issues recently and it is more difficult to exercise some days because of my knee. I'm also fighting unrealistic expectations. I keep thinking that the weight should be falling off me automatically (if only!) I've lost 20 pounds but of course I was hoping for more.

I go back to UVA hospital Friday for the first fill of the lap band. I've noticed that the full feeling has gone and I'm hungry more often now. I've indulged in some foods (pizza, popcorn, chocolate pie and biscuits) that I won't be able to eat after Friday. In my mind .....It was a farewell meal but of course I regret it now.

Daisy Dilemma: Still trying to get my head in the game....how long does it take?

Sisterly Advice....gladly taken!

2008-04-07T09:27:00.004-05:00

My sister Bobbie recently wrote me an email....and sent these pictures of herself before and after having lap band surgery. She's always been my hero and some one I can depend on. Thanks sis!

I read your last "My Weigh of Thinking" blog and was amazed that anyone would make those comments-----How rude and unthinking!!! I am of the opinion that everyone has his or her "addictions" and weaknesses and we all need strength, prayer or whatever to overcome them. . . .Do not let the "turkeys" get you down. . .By the way, most people started to notice a weight loss after 50-60 pounds. At this point, a few people in my Sunday School class will say, "Didn't you lose a lot of weight?" After a 100 pound loss, I should say so!! But I do feel better, haven't had an asthma attacks in years, no incessant coughing and it is great to be able to run after the "grands"!!

It's only a tool!

2008-03-27T12:17:00.002-05:00

I watched an interview this morning with Carnie Wilson on Good Morning America. Apparently she is being followed by the paparazzi and being bombarded with very unbecoming photos and stories about her gaining weight since her gastric bypass surgery nine years ago.

She admits to gaining weight and continually having had struggles with her "inner demons". Watching her reminded me of some of the comments I've gotten from various friends and acquaintances since having my lap band surgery.

Most people have been very encouraging but there have been a few negative comments as well.

I've had the backward compliment...."I'm so glad you are finally doing something about your weight. I always wondered why it was such a problem for you. It's always been a spiritual stumbling block for me. I figured if you couldn't control your weight you certainly couldn't help me with my problems."

I've also had the overly concerned comment: "I saw a show about women who have had weight loss surgery and replaced their food addiction with alcoholism or sex additions. I hope that doesn't happen to you."

I've also had the easy fix comment: "Well, if that's the only way you can lose the weight then you should go for it. Have you seen "The Biggest Loser" show? Those people lost their weight the right way. Maybe you should try that first."

I've decided that there is no easy fix. The lap band is a tool. I still have to do the work. I still have to make the right choices and I still have to exercise. I still have to push away from the table and I still have to make myself go for a walk, or ride the exercise bike .

The fact that I'm not always hungry anymore is a gift.

Daisy Dilemma: How do you respond to negative comments about your weight?

Update.....

2008-03-24T10:42:00.002-05:00

...The first month has been rather rough for me but I think I'm finally on the up swing. Charlie gave me the flu for Easter so I wasn't tempted to indulge in Easter candy. Before I came down with the flu I was starting to regain some stamina and energy.

I saw the surgeon last Wednesday and he was pleased with my progress. I'm not hungry (which never happened before) so he did not schedule a fill of the lap band till April 11th. So far I've lost 19 pounds and it is nice to be able to eat real food again.

My cravings seem to be met with just one spoonful. I'm learning to only eat what I really like and some times after taking a bite of something I think I really want, I'm finding out that" That particular food" wasn't it!

I find that if I don't eat sweets, I don't crave them. Low fat yogurt and a few Dibbs ice cream dots have been the height of my sweet cravings. I've stayed away from breads but do like crackers and especially the Pringles wheat sticks. My all time favorite is Quakers' rice cake (Cinnamon Strudel) that has a little bit of frosting drizzled on it.

My knees is much improved with the weight loss too.

Peeps Rank #1 most fattening Easter Candy!

2008-03-24T09:15:00.003-05:00

Wouldn't ya just know it? Peeps ranked #1 Most fattening Easter Candy according to Newsweek Article.

Of course all my favorites were included.

Jelly beans ranked number two.

Fortunately I didn't have any trouble with Easter Candy this year. It held no appeal for me. (Probably because I got the flu for Easter....thanks honey!)

Emma wasn't exactly wowed with her first experience with Peeps. Check out her musical video called "Hanging with my Peeps" here.

On a good note to start the week I've lost 19 pounds so far.

Daisy Dilemma: Other than having skinny ear lobes and a thinner face my weight loss has been totally invisible. How much weight do you have to lose before people notice?

What Flower are You?

2008-03-11T10:16:00.000-05:00

Silly me....I thought they were yellow Daisies!

What These Sunflowers Say About You

You are a truly warm person with amazing bursts of energy.

You bring happiness to everyone around you, and you are adored by many.

You're bright, bold, and cheery. You nourish friends you with your optimism.

What Do The Flowers You Pick Say About You?

This Daisy is getting a lot more perky!

2008-03-10T12:30:00.006-05:00

The last month has been pretty rough (even for a lazy daisy).

I was being to think that I might not ever feel energetic again.

I'm beginning to feel better and am able to do more every day without being wiped out. This past weekend we had a group of lively junior high kids (22) that came in to help us for 5 hours. They did a tremendous amount of work but we really had to hustle to stay ahead of them.

This coming week we will have a group of 7 coming from Savannah to work. They will be staying at the mission so I will be the happy hostess. The next few days will be spent gathering equipment so the group can work and feel like they had a good mission experience.

I finally lost the 6 pounds of fluid that I had gained.

Daisy Dilemma: Why does it take so long to lose what you already lost?

No more Big Girl Panties for me!

2008-03-05T07:31:00.002-05:00

Went to see my primary physician yesterday and get him updated. I found out that I gained two more pounds this week. He says it's fluid since I have not taken a fluid pill in two weeks. The more I am up and walking around the more fluid I have in my extremities . So I took a fluid pill this morning to see if I can get rid of some of the excess.

I figure if I take one once a week it won't deplete my Potassium levels. You can bet I threw a banana in with my Protein Shake this morning!

I had a nice problem. I had to buy new underwear as my Big Girl panties won't stay up any more. That was encouraging despite the increase on the scale.

Daisy Dilemma: How do you keep yourself encouraged?

Still Wrestling

2008-03-03T09:24:00.002-05:00

Still wrestling with a few problems here. It's been a week and I'm finally over the urinary tract infection just to have it replaced by a yeast infection from the antibiotic! I'm beginning to wonder if I'm ever going to start feeling "just ok".

Saturday I over did as we had a group from Pennsylvania staying at the mission and working. They were a great group and I really enjoyed being with them but I paid for it later in exhaustion.

I forget that I'm running on reserves (or rather watered down gasoline) and that I can't make quick acceleration's any more. I'm definitively a marathoner and not a sprinter.

I'm home today.....doing the laundry, and getting out receipts letters. Trying to start a gradual exercise program. I gained weight this week.....I'm not sure how I managed that but it is discouraging to say the least.

Daisy Dilemma: I think my metabolism has gone into starvation mode and is holding on to every calorie.....any suggestions?

My inner thin woman is having a hard time....

2008-02-27T09:48:00.005-05:00

They say that inside every fat person is a thin person trying hard to escape. My poor thin woman is having a very hard time escaping for sure.

I'm having a few hiccups from my surgery. The first occurred a week after my surgery. Every time I got up and walked around a little I got very weak and felt like I might pass out. After two days of this "horrible feeling" we went to the ER to find out what was going on.

After 8 hours, many consultations and lab tests it was decided that my fluid pill was depleting my electrolytes. I was given an IV and some potassium and told to stop taking it. My white count was up and I suggested they do a urine sample since I felt like I might be getting a UTI. They did and told me every thing looked good.

Monday, was a horrible day.....lots of gas pain and still not feeling very well. By Monday night there was no question that I had a full blown UTI. I felt lousy, burned when passing urine and was having bladder spasms. Tuesday morning I made an appointment to see a local physician and guess what? I have a urinary tract infection! SURPRISE!

Now I'm on an antibiotic and am slowly beginning to feel like I might actually live. I'm telling you, my inner thin woman is having quite a battle. She's struggling just to be alright right now. I'm sure these are just a few hiccups along the way and certainly things could be much worse.

So here's a shout out to the woman I am becoming.....struggle and all.

Health Update

2008-02-22T10:15:00.000-05:00

To all my cheerleaders! I am doing really well since my surgery last Saturday.

I'm off all pain medication and am doing well with blended foods. I've discovered some new recipes and have finally had my first bowel movement. Who knew what a blessing that would be.

My sister assures me that the first two bites of anything is always the best and I should never put anything in my mouth that I don't really love. Some things I'm sure I will have to smell and remember vicariously. I will finally be able to eat solid foods in about 3 weeks.

So far I've lost 12 pounds and it is has been great not to always feel hungry. My biggest problem at the moment is getting in all my protein for the day.

Thanks for your prayers.

Wow If that's not enough to make you lose you lunch.....

2008-02-16T17:51:00.000-05:00

Day of Surgery

2008-02-16T10:10:00.000-05:00

Today I'm having surgery for the lap band procedure. I've never had general anesthesia before so I'm really pretty nervous about the whole thing. I report in at 9:30 (which is about two hours before the actual surgery).

The surgery is laproscopic , a band is put around the upper part of the stomach forming a pouch that holds approximately a half a cup of food. The band gives you the feeling of fullness with much less food. Nothing is cut so the food is absorbed normally and goes through the small and large intestine and eliminated normally through the colon.

Today I was on clear liquids the entire day and went through a bowel prep. When I get home I will be on blended foods for the next 4 weeks.

A little bird told me.....

2008-02-12T10:07:00.000-05:00

Mr. Wonderful and I went to series of classes yesterday at UVA Medical Center. The classes were about the lap band procedure for weight loss. The nurse educator explained and demonstrated how the band works and described it as "a tool" to help you get to the weight you want to be. She went on to explain that you still had to do the work....make the right food choices, exercise and change your lifestyle.

After the classes we were given an opportunity that I truly believe came from the Lord. Apparently the hospital is changing to a newer brand of lap band and the surgeon has to be proctored by a certified surgeon that has done a number of these procedures with this particular brand. Saturday they are doing 3 lap band surgeries with this new product. I can have this procedure done on Saturday by their top bariatric surgeon (23 years experience) with the assistance of a certified Lap Band specialist. The UVA surgeon is booked up 9 months in advance so I feel like this is an opportunity I can't pass up.

I would appreciate your prayers, more than I can express. I'm not a brave person and can easily talk myself into a panic attack. I truly believe that God has provided the finances, the surgeon and the opportunity so now I just need you to "pray me up". Thanks in advance.

God Moments....Me moments

2008-01-18T11:54:00.000-05:00

At the end of a long day, who sings you lullabies?

It’ getting late and I’m on my way home now, after a full day.

I take a few moments to review the day, the God moments and the me moments. I become saddened that there are more me moments than God moments in my day. Then, to my mind comes two conversations I’ve had today with two individuals who each mention a significant shift in their direction in the past days. Hope comes back to my heart.

My mind remembers how not three days previously I couldn’t get them out of my head. So I did the only think I knew to do, and that was to pray, so I did. I prayed and prayed for them and it felt good to pray with such freedom and intensity. I didn’t know then what I was praying for, but I think I do now.

Ah,
God moments - 10.
Me moments - 6. (ok, 7)

There is always someone who loves to sing you Lullabies

I was reading this post from a dear friend and it moved me deeply. I know this blogger well and his post always encourage and convict me.

Coffe while I wait

2008-01-18T10:32:00.001-05:00

You Are a Plain Ole Cup of Joe

But don't think plain - instead think, uncomplicated
You're a low maintenance kind of girl... who can hang with the guys
Down to earth, easy going, and fun! Yup, that's you: the friend everyone invites.
And your dependable too. Both for a laugh and a sympathetic ear.

What Kind of Coffee Girl Are You?

2008-01-16T13:17:00.001-05:00

I know you haven't heard anything from me in a while.....it's because I'm still waiting to know something. I don't like waiting. I'm not good at it and when I'm forced to practice it makes me grumpy.

I'm now waiting on a date to see the Surgeon about the Lap-Band procedure. When my primary physician's office called to make the referral they found out that the surgeon is moving to Ohio this month. So more calls followed and more delays. I'm still waiting on a date for the next appointment.

Meanwhile, I have talked with the surgeon's office about how long a wait there will be? They are booked up till February 12th and that was a few days ago. Apparently when I do get the appointment there is also several classes to attend that day as well as lab work. If all that goes well surgery would be about a month later.

Did you know sitting next to the phone doesn't make it ring any faster?

Still being a "Lady- in- waiting"

Well, Mr. wonderful is my superman

2008-01-07T20:04:00.000-05:00

Hmmm.....now that's interesting!

2008-01-07T18:28:00.000-05:00

What Daisy Means

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Saturday Photo Hunt....delicious

2008-01-04T22:32:00.001-05:00

Whenever my kids are home, all of them always want to go to Chick-fil-a. The food tastes so much better especially if it's been a long time since you had any and will be a long time till you can get any again.

Weigh In at the the doctor

2008-01-04T11:32:00.000-05:00

Just back from my three month check with the doctor. I didn't lose any weight according to his records (but he didn't know about the 5 pounds I gained over Christmas).

He will be sending a referral to Dr. Northrup (the Lap band specialist) and hopefully I can get into see him soon. I have no idea how far in advanced he is booked. I'm sure there will be more hoops to go through but at least talking to the surgeon is now more of a reality.

Over all it has been a good week and focusing on good choices seems to have been a good choice for me. Life is continuing on at a hectic pace but I am pleased at the progress I've made in many of areas of my life (at least for this week!)

I was impressed by some of Gattina's quotes on New Years Resolutions.

Many people look forward to the New Year for a new start on old habits.
People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas.
“Now there are more overweight people in America than average-weight people. So overweight people are now average. Which means you've met your New Year's resolution.”
New Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us.
May all your troubles last as long as your New Year's resolutions.

2 Down only 363 to go!

2008-01-02T19:22:00.000-05:00

Well, day 2 of the new year went quite well. My "make good choices "theme went well and I feel that I really did make some really good choices both in what I choice to eat as well as how I spent my time.

This morning I emailed all my Christmas thank you notes, emailed my friends and family and had a long lengthy time for Bible study and reflection. I was amazed how much better my day went and how much work actually got accomplished.

I couldn't find my new calendar at work which was some what frustrating. I was hoping to schedule some dates for our mission's Prayer Days and book some youth groups for working on Saturdays. I can't find it anywhere.....so looks like this wasn't the day I needed to pursue this task.

I'm not writing down everything I ate....but I have been very aware of absolutely everything that has gone into my mouth. I'm trying not to be too pleased with myself as I know I always start off good.....it's just that darn "middle part" that seems to get me.

Quote of the Day:

"Enthusiasm is the greatest asset in the
world. It beats money and power and
influence. It is no more or less
than faith in action."
- Henry Chester

New Year, New Start!

2008-01-01T22:21:00.001-05:00

Welcome 2008! A New Year , a fresh start.

I've decided not to make resolutions as I rarely keep them and they seem to be the same every year (so obviously I'm not making any progress with them.)

I've decided what I want to concentrate on is "Making Good Choices" this year.

This is pretty broad in that it covers my choices for eating, spending my time, what I watch, read, and how I will react.

Today started off a little rocky but ended well. I made good choices in what I ate and the portions but I was impatient and unkind to my Mr. Wonderful. The day got better after I gave it over to the Lord and apologized.

I was amazed at everything that did get done today.....even repairing the motor on the wood fire box outside as the temperatures are supposed to drop tonight. Thanks Lord I needed that nudge! Help me to pray about the small things in my life before they become the big things.

Thought for the day:

"The indispensable first step to getting the
things you want out of life is this:
decide what you want."
- Ben Stein

Time for a change

2007-12-31T06:59:00.000-05:00

A brand new year is on the horizon and I'm a little closer to my goal of losing weight for good. I did join Weight Watchers (totally hated it and instantly forgot about it!).

I weigh in at my doctor's office in a week so have to lose the holiday weight that I gained (about 5) pounds. I've already lost 4 so I'm well on my weigh (way),

I know in my head that portion control and making wise choices is the best path for me. Unfortunately I don't seem to remember that when tempted with holiday fare and tend to rationalize that after all it's only once a year.

I don't do moderation well. I guess it's because I'm an extreme kind of girl. I either really like something or really hate it.....very little middle ground with me. So here's to extremes in 2008!

"If you don’t have time to do it right,
when will you have time to do it over?"
- John Wooden

The Battle that's going on in my Head.

2007-11-07T10:09:00.000-05:00

Me Go Back to Weight Watcher? AAAAAGGGGHHHH!!!!!

I started my love/hate relationship with WW January 2006. I know I need accountability in my life but do I really need the added aggravation?

The resident lecturer, Miss Chirpy, totally brings out the snark in me. She is over the top when it comes to motivation and then there is always the "death march to the scale" to look forward to ( and don't even get me started with "scale lady".)

To add insult to injury I get to pay 11 dollars a week for the privilege of "feeling like dirt" and being obsessive compulsive about everything that goes into my mouth. ( OOO, ooo.....sign me up!)

I do have a friend Elwood, who has lost 45 pounds through WW and of course he is the "Poster Boy" for all things WW. I'm not sure if sitting next to him would make me feel better or worse, and I certainly don't want to have any more notoriety than I already have, being the towns fat person. Elwood is an older gentleman and about the only male that attends......so of course he stands out in the crowd. (Not that I don't!)

The meeting is tomorrow at 5.....the battle in my head continues......so far there are more Con's than Pros.

Daisy Dilemma: How is it that my distress is such a matter of amusement for some people I know and love?

Our town is so small that I actually think the WW meetings is the only source of entertainment.

Back on the Wagon....

2007-11-06T12:21:00.001-05:00

I went to see my doctor yesterday for my monthly weigh-in. I lost 1 pound (which I will call a grace pound) since I did nothing to deserve it.

One month ago I went to see my doctor and asked him to refer me to a doctor that does lap-band surgery. My older sister had it done over a year ago and has lost over 90 pounds and 10 dress sizes. She has graciously offered to pay for the surgery if I could find some one in our area that does this kind of surgery and will also do the follow up.

I meet all the qualifications so thought getting a referral would be simple. As it turns out even if you are not paying with insurance you have to be supervised by your primary care physician for 3 months in a weight loss program. The month was mostly over by the time I learned about the stipulations and lets face it......I'm a stress eater and this past month has been very stressful.

Having no insurance means paying 104 dollars to my physician just so he can weigh me and chart it down. I did get the lecture that I expected about all the problems being over weight can cause and what I should be doing. I listen attentively and agreed in all the right places. We did come to some compromises which are these.

1. He only charged me 52 dollars for the visit and counted it as being supervised for the first month.

2. Next month I am scheduled to weigh in with this nurse and she will chart it down.

3. I am required to join Weight Watcher (despite my love/hate relationship with this organization and it's all too perky meeting leaders) for weekly accountability and to bring in my food diary . Ouch that hurt!!

4. I have an appointment with him on Dec. 5th which hopefully means he will then be able to get the referral I requested probably sometime by the first of the year.

5. He gave me three month samples of Lipitor.

6. He restored my hope!

Daisy Dilemma: Can I tolerate two months of perky and going back to Weigh Watchers which I loath with all my little daisy heart? The meetings totally bring out the snarky side of my personality.

Hip Hip Hippo-Ray!

2007-10-24T11:06:00.001-05:00

Yesterday started out bad and only got continually worse. My Mr. Wonderful is never sick but when he is there is absolutely no one in the world that is sicker.

Yesterday any movement at all would make him nauseated and retching. Mr. Wonderful does not throw up well and this Daisy is highly suggestible....so while he was retching I was actually throwing up just at the thought of him throwing up. (yes, I am a nurse but noise and smells get me every time and it's only gotten worse as I age!)

My friend mompoet actually said it best:

It's possible that Mr. Wonderful getting sick is an indicator that you both finally have time for it. You've had such an eventful and demanding 6 months, culminating in the big container job, his interview and your days away. Does this mean that life is finally settling down, and you now have the luxury to get sick if you need too?

Wow, I never thought of it that way before.....thanks for the "Aha" moment. Our bodies are so finely attuned that when we push them too hard and for too long they shut down. Mr. Wonderful is getting the much needed rest he needs whether he wants to or not.

He is much better today. He slept all night and is still a little dizzy when moving around. He is able to keep food down (so maybe I will be able to also!)

I have therapy this afternoon and I'm sure I'll be fussed at.....it's not like I didn't walk the way to Savannah and back ! (Well, I did to my weigh of thinking!)

Thought for the day: Boy am I enthusiastic!

"Enthusiasm spells the difference between
mediocrity and accomplishment."
- Norman Vincent Peale

I may never eat again.....

2007-10-21T22:10:00.000-05:00

This is a picture of me and some of my peers! All a little bigger and grayer than we were last week!

I was keeping a diet diary and listing all the calories and food I consumed but I couldn't count that high! (and I got nauseated just listing them!)

I think I am finally talked out and may never eat again.....Tomorrow is the Monday that I start doing damage control!

I'm not looking forward to facing the scales!

What I learned today

2007-10-08T18:23:00.001-05:00

1. If you do enough " dreading" in advance of an event, no matter what goes wrong you won't be surprised!

2. A column of numbers in pounds never converts to kilo's the way you think it should.....no matter how many calculators you use.

3. The "domino effect" is very dramatic in an overly stacked warehouse.

4. Being pulled away from a job, always makes it harder to jump right back into it.

5. Today is Thanksgiving Day in Canada.....(I was thankful when the day ended today!)

6. I admire people who can crunch numbers together and get them to come out right!

7. I get TBI (tiny bit irritated ) at co-workers who think out loud when I am involved in another project and trying to concentrate.

8. No matter how long I've been married to Mr. Wonderful I still need him to use words to convey what he wants me to do, ( I can't read his thoughts which is probably a good thing today!)

9. A bad attitude seldom gets better when stressed and overly tired.

10. Columbus wasn't the only person who made a discovery today.....I discovered a pink plastic flamingo bud vase on my desk this morning!

11. Melli thinks "the dreads" refers to my new hairdo.

12. Question: What do dreadlocks and pink plastic flamingo's have in common? Answer: They both get repeated in the morning!

13. A day hemmed in prayer is less likely to come unraveled.

Daisy Dilemma: Do I really have to go back again tommorow?

Watch me work!

2007-10-06T22:22:00.001-05:00

After a long heart to heart talk with Mr. Wonderful it has been decided that I can go to Savannah on Saturday. In order to go without a black cloud hanging over my head (guilt goes a long way with me) I need to try to get as much of the paper work done on this next container as possible.

That means working every day ......all day at the mission. It mean pre-packing shipping gaylords and doing extensive inventories of each item, including weights of individual pieces.

I'm tired, cranky and overwhelmed at the thought of it right now. So I'm going to pull a Scarlet O'Hara move and "Think about it tomorrow!"

I know I'm being selfish, and I know I will do it.....I just don't have "the want to's" right now!

Daisy Dilemma: What do you do to motivate yourself to do a task you don't want to do?